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| Thursday, July 31, 2008
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What has all that you've once said gone to now? Changed a blog song, again. I remember screaming this song with felicia in our hotel room at west m'sia. I want another go at west m'sia luh, manzxc. Today was nothing much. Missed band so have to make up to it with the practising at home. Grah im freaking bored and my posts are getting more boring each day. I srsly just have nothing to blog about. Jiayou RVCB for Istana. <3 many loves. TAGREPLIES.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
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A belief.im not feeling good, so if you had expected a happy post and chanced upon mine which is like so darn emo, you can feel free to close this window you are viewing. i sound really bad and rude right now, sorry for that. i have no mood to post, no mood to type. Recently life's been just that. But im certainly very in th mood to sleep. Sucky post. Goodbye. Monday, July 28, 2008
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made my day full of rainbows and full of life. s-milingregrets2.blogspot.com WEST M'SIA PEEEEKTURES! YAY I AM GOOD AT INFLUENCING PEOPLE. (esp grace) LOL :D cause she started a blog again! Now i shall attempt to blog with big frequent words. Or maybe not, because then you MUST read every single word since my font is quite small. I have a whole stack of malay costumes waiting by my bed hoping to return to their owner. Have to find some time to do that lah! If not, wouldnt reflect very good on me. (LOL i just acted as if i was so nice.) T.T YESH BTW, i just fell in love with arial and ebuddy. Reasons? ARIAL has a good " :D " to type with. Im using ebuddy because my msn broke down, apparently, due to th fact that i couldnt communicate well with it and we broke up. Hopefully we get back together? I miss it already. THE NEWEST IN THANG. KEN LEEE~ TULIBU DIBU DOUCHOO as such, we apologises for not translating this well enough. OHWAIT, its already translated, its already, IN ENGLISH! lool! :D (okay ITS THE NEWEST IN THANG meaning only 2J people might figure it out haha.) if not, you people can try typing "KEN LEE" into youtube and press the button, search. GOODLUCK, have a nice day! (: ****** sigh. why am i sighing when things appear to be good? because well, they only APPEAR to be, but actually they arent. look closely into my eyes, they are always lying. I AM (supposed to be) HAPPY. Am I? Am i supposed to act as if im happy, tht nothing much is going on, that everything is okay? Sounds depressing, sounds like im going to hang myself or smth But guess what, as a matter of fact, thats life. it gets this depressing. ALL HUMANS ARE NATURALLY ACTORS. seriously. thrs no use typing all those (eMorhxX) stuff over here over and over again. Because it just repeats itself. Then why do i still type these stupid stuff. Grah, told you im stupid. ****** if i tell you it was actually me all along, i doubt you would EVER believe. (hey dude, this is not for a guy. dig your eyes out, bury it. ITS NOT FOR A GUY) - something you'll never get. istana is in a terribly 6 days. rivervalley concert band, I TULIBU DIBU DOUCHOO. (: Labels: happy?, istana, kenlee Sunday, July 27, 2008
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i say, "hello, i miss you quite terribly"i think i need to post the link to the blog for west m'sia pictures everyday (: So people wont miss it. -> s-milingregrets2.blogspot.com okay done. Let's get on with it. Changed yet another skin, i dont know why. Perhaps someday i will just change back to the other one (?) My mum's browsing the pictures i took and giving weird & typical comments like "ey he damn tall" or "ey she dam chio" or even losing the main focus of the picture and asking "how come this guy at the back looks so old" (when the main thing is actually the rubber tapping thingy. She has very little attention span, or rather she is not interested in those at all. Wanna know who she said was chio and shuai? HAHA. Grah, i feel so overwhelmed by whats happening lately. Seriously i will go bonkers someday. But theres stuff worth rejoicing about, like how everyone in class actually feels more or less MORE bonded with 2J, and that ive finally upgraded to grade3 for guitar ohmyMAMA. (: i like this quote "Live life until love is found, or love's gonna get you down" Sometimes i really do wonder about this amazing thing about love. The freaking contradictory side of it. Dang it, why are humans born with such confusing senses and nerves? Anyway i think i always say the wrong thing that creates misunderstanding. I think theres a huge problem with my way of expressing my thoughts. T.T sigh. Later on im spending the afternoon in my house with my music mates(?!) for completing the music project. I HEARD WE HAFTA FINISH IT TODAY?! (EXCLAMATION MARKMARKMARK) ohgosh. hello sky supply us with enough brain and music juice. p.s. i cant believe ive spelt hyphen as hi-fen all my entire life for 14 years. OHGOSH. ): p.s.s i have to get used to using arial. BUT I STILL LIKE GEORGIA. Gonna change it back soon. Unless i have a sudden crush on arial. :D FER! this is the song ive been talking about (: &to all, listen to it. its damn freaking nice (: (stop the music playing first LOL) 我知道故事不会太曲折 lovesloves. (: S-MILINGREGRETS2.BLOGSPOT.COM notice the number 2 please, thats why its a different blog. (: Labels: overwhelmed, songs, west m'sia Saturday, July 26, 2008
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BEST/RANDOM THINGS ABOUT WESTMSIA ! NUMBA ONE. putrajaya on the first day was the most ever wonderful time to camwhore with your beloved class, 2J. Especially with the guys who go BUT 你都没有 COCK and EH YOU ALL VERY RUDE LEH, KEEP QUIET NOW. JIEW!~~ HAHA LOVESLOVES! <3 NUMBA TWO. its great camwhoring with a retarded cat that is really good at posing and loves her retarded tomato so much. Plus, talking and gossiping about all the wonderful stuffs without any secrets is 10times better than anything else. (: WHEEEEEWHOOSH. NUMBA THREE. the camera shy guys are alfino and matthew. the best camera guys are huang and tzechong. TEEHEEHEE :D NUMBA FOUR. I freaked felicia out three times overall in the whole trip and got suan-ed by pris for freaking out because i thought i lost my phone. SORRAYE! NUMBA FIVE. the best animals to see during the trip are mosquitoes and houseflies. They are the best cause they irritate you to no end. WAHLAO. NUMBA SIX. Overall we still took pictures with matthew and alfino. That was a good news. (: KA-CHAA! NUMBA SEVEN. CARI plays the best reaction game evahhhh. Hsiaotien and grace have laughter that maes tzechong and alfino tumble on the ground laughing. Jiekai is a very nice guy. HOHOHO :D NUMBA EIGHT. veron is more easily amused than i am! :D NUMBA NINE. hsiaotien and shimin have a messy room! And still they are the best retardeds on earth. shimin makes a good rapper. hsiaotien makes a goOd transformer (inside jokes) :D NUMBA TEN. Grace and cherie are the best snorers on earth when they sneaked in to sleep. JUST KIDDING luh! i slept like a pig i dont even know who snored. Maybe i did. T.T Grace made a good joke about FURBALLS. ehehe. NUMBA ELEVEN. UNGLAM sleeping positions on the whole!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOOOOOL :D NUMBA TWELVE. we've got more retarded moves coming up! THE KEEEEPOK! by shimin and the WHATEVER by felicia. *applauses!* HAHAHA. NUMBA THIRDTEEN. Whenever you are unable to finish your food, be sure to play zhong ji mi ma. You would discover many surprises on the way. (: NUMBA FOURTEEN. i actually think i look like CHENGYU?! NUMBA FIFTEEN. OMG I DIDNT PAY FOR THAT LIPTON TEA!!!! (which grace attempted to dry it and hopefully no one discovers it) NUMBA SIXTEEN. passport photos are where the cutest people exists! (like me) HAHAHAAH naw lah im just kidding, really. Alright shall think of more to go. WHEEHEE. REMEMBER TO GO TO s-milingregrets2.blogspot to see the picturessssss :D YAYYYYYY im still in the WEST M'SIA MOOD. /
HELLO.feel free to look or kope pictures here (: www.s-milingregrets2.bs Friday, July 25, 2008
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Run baby run, dont ever look back forever will be, you&me. hellohello im stepping on singapore's land now.(: feels good but i rather being back at the hotel at selangor camwhoring, munching on snacks, crapping and screaming. 3Days 2Nights just passed like WHOOOOSH. kieaow i want more of west m'sia. To say the truth, i think most of the trip was spent on the bus ride, where i was sleeping, most of the time. T.T UNGLAMMMM sleeping positions. Yknow what, THIS TRIP IS REALLY FUN FUFILLING FANTASTIC especially with 2JELLYBEAN. imma 100% sugar free jellybean, ROCK ON! (: Dont want yadeyadebilabala on the trip cause i dont feel like it. And im trying the best way to post/show the 196 pictures i took during the trip, so bear with it (for those who wanna kope th pictures)! HAHA. Yesh i will be off koping more pictures meanwhile too. (esp from cari grace ht sm yuning) I keep mentioning th fact that once this trip is over, the next 'big' thing is up - Common tests. And the daily robotic routines start all over again. Aw come on, how boring can this get uh?! T.T The sec3s are back today as well. Ohwell, every fun thing's ending like so soon. ): Booo. Meanwhile, i'll post outdated pictures (:   above pictures are my attempts to take a beautiful professional shot. (stresses on ATTEMPT)     When we were on our way to collect out -rock your ass out- class tee (:    BEST EVER RACIAL HARMONY DAY OHRIGHT (:  HELLO WE ARE THE SIX-L BATCH OF WV ALUMNI. say yoh-oh! :D okay im done. wheeeeeeeee stay tuned for the WEST M'SIA PEEEEKTURES. :D Labels: pictures, west m'sia Monday, July 21, 2008
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th only one who makes my heart beat that fast, period.I AM SO LAZY TO UPDATE. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jssxkke5oVk I DEMAND YOU TO GO AND WATCH IT. it aint very clear BUT HELLO it is good enough because i think the most entertaining award rocks too (: congrats to the other classes as well i think we are a rocking bunch HAHA :D i was the snow white for the day. Yeah, Right. Totally. Hmmhmm. What else..? DIDNT HAVE TIME AT ALL TO VISIT THE SEC4S BOOTH CAN (!!!!!!!!) wahliewwwwwww. ): alamak. but we took class photos :D heehee. (: sec3s are like, at PULAU UBIN ISLAND, hope they have a good time. (:(:(: TOMORROW IS WEST M'SIA. im jumping for joy, literally. CLASSTEE's OUT IT ROCKS THE HOUSE DOWN YOH. srsly! i hope west m'sia days wont pass that fast ): Uhwell. Sorry for those bits and pieces of the post. Have many to post but nothing gets into my mind because i feel like sleeping. OKAY I AM A PIG IF YOU INSIST. argh no one in particular is going to read this post anyway because everyone's gonna be busy packing or sleeping. I shall very much do the same. (: Labels: racial harmony, west m'sia Sunday, July 20, 2008
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when the sun sets,and everything turns into darkness, will you be there for me? urgh *spams my vulgarities* I HAVENT DONE A SINGLE HOMEWORK YET SHUCKZXCZXC *pushes up nerdy specs* precisely the case. because i am so nerdy i feel that doing homework is a must for all students in order for us to be able to revise what we have learnt. *beams at teacher* BUT HARLLO i dont want do can im so tired i want to sleep sleep sleep! *takes out penknife* DRAMATICCCCCCC (please) Okay luh, seriously, i hadnt done any homework yet and i hate doing things last minute (but thats what i always do) & yay me cause i asked jacob and he said sean didnt learn any new pieces so i can still keep up with th guitar! YIPPPPEEEEE :D So apparently i am still trying my best to slack since im dead tired from being fascinated at the BALANCING BUTTERFLY and entertaining REALLY CUTE AND ADORABLE AND PRETTAYE (ang moh) kids. Okay, not all angmohs. Some are malays (I LOVE THEIR LONG EYELASHES), indians (I LOVE THEIR POLITENESS) and chinese (CURIOUS BABIES). When they finish with the butterfly and say 'thankyou' your heart will light up and you will smile. Awww. Yesh it is really THAT sweet ohright! (: Because of cip at science centre today. (: Ohright. And i like jasmine and myra. (: Nice people, crazaye too. They werent that bad. AND KHUZAIMAH knows myra! :D Squadmates yoh. Haha. :D THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH TO KHUZAIMAH <3 girl i love you to the max ohright! :D Thanks for lending me SIX PRETTAYE malay costumes (: Really i think i really am very very very fortunate to have good friends AND neighbours ohmy. :D Thats something happy to end my day right :D i sincerely hope tmr will be perfectly alright. Its just a day before the west m'sia trip. Please let it all be okay. I'm pleading you. goodbye. TAGREPLIES (: Felicia: LOL WHAT THE HELL?! Saturday, July 19, 2008
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What's becoming of it? - Is this the only resort?I looked through them and read through every single word. And it makes me feel worse each time. everyone telling a tale at the back of everyone. What has this become to? Grah, i wanna help. You know we all love the same thing, but why cant we love the people who love it as well? We are one, remember? I AM VEH VEH VEH TIRED OKAH. BUT I LIKE I LIKE WHEN THINGS GO SMOOTHSMOOTHLY. (: thts something to make me smile (altho i didnt manage to read EVEN A SINGLE PAGE of twilight boo!) HAHAHA. Tday started out with meeting up with steff, hui & junyuan to eat breakfast before heading down to wv open house as alumni to help out. This time many other seniors came back ohright! and i super lurbbes xiuhan i think shes cute funny and ultra cute and funny HAHA (i hope you read this!) And then i rushed back home and realise my key is in my (no one is apparently at home) house. WHOO so i had to walk to my aunt's house to get it. uh. apparently thts not really th point though AHA. and then i rushed to JE with ht to meet up for the RHD dance. omg RHD sounds so professional. ( EH I AM INVOLVED IN RHD DANCE W0RH :D) and everything went weeeeell~ i liked it loads. we videoed it down for easier reference and then took a grp photo. then some of us went je to take neos. LOL. its my first time taking with them okah! :D freaking tired. plus we went to the place where we practised jap graf. ): aw manzxc. just finished packing for the west m'sia trip. aint that much to bring though. everything's sorted and all, yay im so looking forward to it (: tmr gonna be another full day at science centre for cip. and monday's school already. Aaaaaaah. The clock's ticking! Labels: tired, west m'sia Friday, July 18, 2008
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hiding behind the truth,tagreplies (: l ihui: helllooooooo! :D tHr33 dAyYs! ((: every snr's telling me west m'sia is hell fun. hope it will be for me. 2JELLYBEAN I LURBES YOU. :D Labels: tagreplies, west m'sia Thursday, July 17, 2008
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Feels like slamming the door in your face.HELLO. i dont like titles, those thingy up thr, i mean the yellowey words?! Because i always forget to fill them in. goodbye my almost lover. changed into a new song because this song is nice. (: The first time you hear it may not be that nice but as long as you run through a few more times, it gets nicer :D As usual im just slacking before i do the homework and crawl to my bed unwillingly because i know the moment i open my eyes would be a long day. Not like thursdays. I hearts thursdays (: SWIMMING COACH ALEX is nice, although i still miss UNCLE BOBBY LOL. :D Made muffins for home econs yaye! NO RED DATES *jumps over the sun* Aaah anyway wanna complain about the long day tmr luh. I WANNA GO CCA, like srsly. When i have such a good mood to go for cca I JUST HAVE STH ON. The racial harmony rehearsal T.T and NSW maths eh. KEAOW?! (its not a spelling error ohright) the nsw maths is from 2.40 to 3.40 and 4.30 i have racial harmony rehearsal. I wanna go for cca and the rehearsal but now i need to get the soran bushi and the small world scores right first and tmr mr goh is coming for tutor dammmmit. ): this is yet another time to set my priorities right eh? i seriously have no idea zxczxc. okay ive finished complaining and all. See you tmr. (on kids central) Goodbye. Labels: complains, goodbye my almost lover Wednesday, July 16, 2008
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the first line of that song, i realise."Being a leader is to know the way, walks the way and shows the way" It aint just all about telling people the way. You gotta walk it to lead them, to make sure the track you are walking on is the right way. But sometimes when you are leading, you get lost in front, and the rest at the back starts losing their direction, then, what do you have to do to help them and yourself get back on the track? **** Missed the second interview with feihon cause had CIP at East Coast Beach. (wonder if its gonna be alright for everything? chance?) Grouped with fer, hsiaotien, huang & josh. LOL simply hilarious. We are going to break the record for picking the most cigrattes. (huang, being the recorder not so easy okay! :D) CAN YOU PEOPLE JUST STOP SMOKING?! it aint doing you good and i dont get why its just so nice when you are going to get yellow teeth and fingernails. T.T i wonder when i will stop going bonkers over the smoking issue. I dont wanna do LA compre luh srsly. SRSLY. I cant understand a single word they are saying and to attempt all the questions is like absolutely draining me out when I ALREADY CANT GET ENOUGH SLEEP EVERYDAY. I dont know why. I just feel drained out by everything, esp when this week is so filled up except maybe tmr? RV LIFE YOU CALL IT? **** When things have to be done, I'll make sure it is, with all the best and everything i can, i hope. I dont wanna lose my way again. Its so easy to feel unhappy, i realise for me. And its just hard to keep myself feeling light and happy. Everything seems so heavy. Its hard to set my priorities. Sacrifices and everything, like a stone in my heart. Still i have to remain calm. I just wanna treasure the remaining times i have left. No i am not dying. I am just slowly waiting for all that ive been looking forward to to come, and realise I hadnt make the best out of it. No i wont. I will make the best out of everything, whenever possible. Damn the regrets. So do i mean anything at all? But whats the point anymore i feel sick. I wanna get sufficient sleep. Stop worrying stop thinking, just sleep. (: Labels: cip, crap emo tsk, leaders Tuesday, July 15, 2008
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first up, one day belated to lihui but still gotta dedicate a post for her since i did for the rest of the 4 girls' birthday. I'm th last baby though ):HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUANGLIHUI! *inserts dimple* brief introduction of this girl, one of my sexiest sizzy six because of her deep dimples. T.T HAHAHA. you're famous for your dimples girl! Be happy about that ahaha (: Gosh i love you loads yoh! (: WE ARE WESTVIEW + RVIANS FOR LIFE NOW haha :D thankyou for everything, for always being there for all of us and taking care of us like how you are felicia's laoma heh :D Good luck for everything you do, and of course, hopefully we can stay as friends for the rest of our lives :D Stay positive and guailan like you are always okay! Happy 14, you are one year older! hee. :D really hope you liked the presents and the "surprise party"? :D **** TSK. to think i thought jieren was dao and scary. HE IS HILARIOUS LOOL. he waved that wooden stick thingy for pretty a long time. T.T AND MATTHEW IS FUNNY. hahaha he got me addicted to 'stand by me' (which we did sing for the racial harmony rehearsal - THAT WAS HILARIOUS yet cool LOL :D) and he keeps saying things that make me laugh. Having back my table partner rocks (be happy dear) Because days in class seem to be much livelier, and combines in band today was not bad, i found back the clarinet spirit for that minute (: Be glad i managed to post today, cause i had been very very busaye. Really. With stuffs im tired to say out of. I dont even know whether ive been doing my homework. T.T Weird eh. Let me collate my nicknames and put up on my blog as a list. You wanna call me, pick one and call me. I'll respond to any. LIKE REAL OKAY. im just putting it up for fun T.T 1. GOLDFISH 2. TOMATO 3. GIMME (GIVE ME) 4. KIDNEY 5. KIMCHI 6. KILL ME 7. RBP (not elaborating) 8. KIMAYE 9. KIMPOM (??!) Thank you very much people, Im very entertained by those names. LOL. whatever, i think MY NAME IS STILL THE NICEST LUH. wonder how you all managed to think of so many funny ones like KIDNEY HELLO. Surprisingly yewhui wasnt the first to orginate that name. I forgot who. Ohmygosh T.T My life has been made much more happier though. I FORGOT ALL ABOUT THE LITTLE RED BEAN I REALISED. I gotta go haunt shimin for it already! I'm such a bad mama. Maybe i shldnt have adopted him neh. ): Ahwell. Anyway hellboy2 is worth the cinema money! So be sure to catch it if you are planning to already! its true yknow, cause i really cant smile without you thrs so much to look forward to i think! except the fact that the year is ending soon, really. omg thinking about it makes me feel like giving the WTH face. T.T i like the way you just is, the way you are just, you. good enough isnt it. (: **** tagreplies! :D ``GRaCE: HAHA yeah i know LOL the song is nice ohright! so meaningful. ABB AND HELLBOY SING DAMN FUNNY! hahaha. :D xinrui: haha okay thanks! :D Felicia: LOL but i like this! heeheehee :D huixin: LOL YESH! and it takes up a lot of space! hahaha. YAY YOU! i shall post one once i think of once again heh :D Labels: lihui's bday, nicknames, tagreplies Sunday, July 13, 2008
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笑，就希望你能知道later imma doing CIP at science centre. Cant do full day already, cause i have too much things to do. Plus, im trying to squeeze in a time to meet my brother for HellBoy2(HOPEFULLY!!). Uhwell, ive seen the review and yesh its much better than other shows! And hellboy is screening on channel 5 today ahaha. And my wrist hurts like shit, terribly. i dont know whats wrong. maybe i bar-ed the 7th position on my guitar to hard alr? Shitzxc, a bit exagerrating but it hurts so much. Just clenching my wrist and i feel like screaming omg ): Tag replies (: jennie: hahaha i keep hearing edward cullen from so many people leh! i wanna read soon hoho (: Labels: cip, tagreplies Saturday, July 12, 2008
freak the fact that money is so important. /
钱不是万能的，但没钱万万不能screw samsung screw me screw money. SCREW THEM ALL. got scolded again by my mum for needing a $400 to fix my new phone which lasted for only 2weeks. Great eh? And to think i already bought it for $200. And where the hell am i gonna get all these money, when the thing in my family is still going on. Why do bad things happen the wrong time? Oh screw you peter pan. Those who know what happen, you understand my plight. and now what, im freaking tired of being so blur luh uh. Crap, screw. I hate it when everything needs money and every single thing has to be regarding money. IM BROKE okay, BROKE. what else now, i aint gonna use aircon i aint gonna waste money, i aint gonna eat outside anymore. i need to save. Because when you are this desperate, you know you want to do everything to save money. once again, screw you peter pan. good day people, bad day for me. its only 11am and im already ruined. thank you very much. (: /edit thank you mummy i love you many many, im sorry. my mum rocks my arse please. she willingly allowed me to use her phone omg! and my old phone (the spare one) dont have network connection everytime luh! she knows but she dont care. thanks mummy, i feel so guilty. but really, thankyou <3 for always being thr and always willing to sacrifice for me! (: Labels: money, peterpan, phone Friday, July 11, 2008
its the number 18th day. you know? /
"live your life until love is found, or love's gonna get you down"-!rockdesigns hate me for changing my skin again, navigation skins dont suit me, nah-ah. (: i like this skin though. its nice and suits my favourite georgia. heh :D p.s. gotta bear with the small tagboard once again heh :D aah nothing much to blog. wish me luck for the weekends, hope i get my phone and specs fixed, and that i pass romance de amor ohright. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMA. me love you loads. will update with photos later on. (: /edit      my grandma's cute LOL. Labels: change skin, happy birthday grandma Thursday, July 10, 2008
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i see the pile of things i need to complete i totally lost the mood to do anything but to slack here for five minutes before i get onto work. Reached home at a pathetic time of 9pm and tmr thrs like math test and full of lessons ranging from boring ones to the most boring ones. How great.its okay my wonderful seniors! (: They dont need to know how many hours we put in, they dont need to see all these, because we know it ourselves. Its okay they didnt see the many hours they think we didnt work hard for. Its okay they think we hadnt tried our best, its okay they kept comparing and said we cant make it. Because i mind the process more than the outcome. Its just a VERY simple thing to i think, many people, but to me its a whole new thing (: i guess little failures, rejection, disappointment, in life accumulates to make a person even stronger. And thats probably a good thing. 'Cause if you really do understand, it wasnt about the rejection at all. It wasnt. Its totally more than that, and its how YOU actually place everything together into words, which totally (gives a totally face). BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, its okay. (: AND I TOTALLY TRIED LOTS OF NEW SWEETTALK FLAVOURS recently. heh heh. Like, STRAWBERRY MILK TEA, VANILLA MILK TEA, and and VANILLA ICE BLEND. :D not really a lot but at least i didnt stick to my usual one already lol! :D ANYWAY LITTLE RED BEAN BROKE A LEG TODAY. HES NOW LAME! OHMYGOSH! i was damn heartbroken canzxc LOL. ): anyway, thankyou to yewhui. FOR GIVING ME A NEW NICKNAME! tsktsk! lastly, AHAHAHA. goodluck man tky for the math test tmr omg. Labels: band, little red bean, test Wednesday, July 09, 2008
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i dont need no stunning performances, i just want something happy and good for everyone.i had many things to post in mind just a few seconds ago. But as i opened the window i forgot everything i wanted to post LOL. wth. ): Okay after one hour of completing my maths assignment (yesh im slow) i remembered what i wanted to say! :D hiphoorah! ohright, so ive decided to borrow twilight after much recommendations from jennie, lihua and veron(2J)! :D today veron lent me for a while and i took a look at it. Didnt really interest me but what jennie lihua and veron said totally stunned me. :D Today's another day without feliciang. Srsly i have many many to tell her but i bet i will forget most of it once i get to school tmr. T.T hello sometimes people have short term memory one okah. Anyway I WANNA TALK ABOUT MY LITTLE RED BEAN! My newest ever adopted son with Shimin as his dad (: Shimin and I are good parents (: HAHA. But today isnt my turn to bring him home so no pictures to show. BUT HELLO HE IS DAMN CUTE. if that red bean happens to be any of your pets last time please dont approach me, let me keep it ohrights cause hes freaking adorable i love him like my own son :D I swear if i bring it home it will be right next to patrick and they would be free to do whatever they want *winkswinks* tmr's theres still speech day rehearsal. Jiayou rvcband! (: i know they are extremely tired after these continuous rounds of rehearsals. enough of my crapping totally dudes. goodbye. ohyesh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINYI! :D loves you many many! :D Labels: band, little red bean, twilight Tuesday, July 08, 2008
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if they are good, you gotta be better. much better.dont ask me why i changed the skin again. i like smaller spaces better perhaps? aiyah i also dont know myself. I just know georgia is a nice font. I'm using it anywhere! (: Ohright thats crap. I dont know how i manage to find the 'feel' to crap after so much that has happened. I love my jap graf dancers. <3 we got approached twice that day, (monday actually) to go and perform for racial harmony at Choa Chu Kang CC and somemore the second time a guy approached us for our numbers. We concluded that was because of, jean. (: It did make me feel better, i thought everything was going to be alright. But, my instincts betrayed me. Another chance..? Is that really a chance, or just something said to make us feel better, to make us accept it more? Whatever the case is, I hadnt regretted spending my afternoons there with weird uncles staring here and there. (:    I found myself lying in a comfortable coffin neh. Neh, i miss my neh (hints to jennie) I miss sectionals and combines. Like i hadnt totally touched clarinet for the past few days like that. Which i did just yesterday morning. The feeling is just different. (like what i told kimdar) I miss farah man, totally, really. Different, but the same amount of tiredness accumulating in me. Yet again, i find myself sleeping only 6hours a day. Some of you may find it common, but to me its hella tiring. Tests, rehearsals, practices, and stuffs at home whereby you try to balance. But dude, I have no mood for the other stuffs. I think about guitar i think about my passion for it. If i could i wanna play it everyday. But hell, I cant. Is it just an excuse or what eh. Anyway. FELICIANGWAIMUN. you better take good care and get well soon if not this poor thingy here has no one to talk to during lessons like, MALAY WTH. this is the season of diseases, cause i see mr bryan tan having a bad time with his running nose today, and ms tay didnt come. T.T i feel freaking exhausted, freaking tired, freaking can-i-sleep-for-a-whole-day-just-for-once ?!?!?!?!?!?! ohright i gotta go now. goodbye. (: Sunday, July 06, 2008
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Meaningless. yaye look! i found a picture when we were at beijing. omg i chose the one i like most because the sun was setting and it was beautiful manzxc! :D       peter pan didnt go cause he wnet for his friend's bday party. i like my mama's phone! ): now i need like more bucks to fix my phone cause i dropped it into the water and it wasnt the phone's problem. wth! ):  the wedding was held outing at the front lawn facing the sea, so nice right heh. But afterwards it rained, so suay. T.T The first wedding buffet i went to though. :D going to improve on the jap graf dance later on whee! :D and make classtee also haha :D Labels: pictures /
tagged by zoenin and yiming :Dlist out the top 5 birthday present that you wish for: 1. bondedness. 2. happiness. 3. improvements. 4. my own cam! 5. a nice day out. answer the following questions: #1. the person who tagged you is : Zoenin, Yiming #2. your relationship with him/her is: Zoenin - Section Mate! Yiming - Fellow AL #3. your 5 impressions of him/her: Zoenin - friendly, nice, lame like me HAHA, great kisser, cute! Yiming - PAIKIA LOL, nice, funny, loves his ipod, GUAIKIA LOL #4. the most memorable thing he/she has done for you: Zoenin - LOL. ermerm, kissed me loads of times HAHA. Yiming - He very bad to me one, so dont have LOL! okay maybe helping me to carry that bag of charcoal for bbq LOL. #5. the most memorable word he/she has said to you: Zoenin - Err that she loves me! LOL. Yiming - O.O i dont remember any. #6. if he/she becomes your lover, i will : Zoenin - LOL eh, she is ALREADY my lover okay! Yiming - I will laugh my ass off. #7. if he/she was your lover, a few things he/she has to improve on will be: Zoenin - I think shes good enough :D Yiming - Like, grow shorter. T.T #8. if he/she becomes your enemy, you will : Zoenin - LOL i will have no one to kiss ): Yiming - I will laugh my ass off. #9. if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be : Zoenin - She hates me ? O.O Yiming - I laughed his ass off LOL. No luh no luh. There's one particular reason heh heh. #10. the most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is : Zoenin - KISS HER! LOL i sound so despo. T.T Yiming - Buy him a pokemon. Or snatch that purple pen away from him. :D #11. your overall impression of him/her is : Zoenin - Friendly! :D Yiming - Tallie! :D #12. how do you think about how people around you will feel about you: Weird. Retarded. Lame. #13. the character you love about yourself is: Lame. Retarded. Weird. #14. on the contrary, things that you hate about yourself are: Lame, retarded weird. #15. the most ideal person you want to be is : Bill Gates, no, i mean srsly. #16. for people that care about and like you, say something to them : Thanks for always been there! :D #17. pass this quiz to 10 ppl that you wish to know how they feel about you: 1) Jennie 2) Sylvia 3) Zoenin 4) Cherie 5) Felicia 6) Clementine 7) Hsiaotien 8) Grace 9) Lihui 10) Yiming #18 who is 6 having relationship with? (Clem) - You luh happy LOL. i dont know eh. #19 is no.9 a female or male? (Lihui)- FEMALE. #20 if no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a gd thing(Hsiaotien & Yiming) - LOL i srsly dont know man O.O #21 how about no.8 and 5? (Grace and Felicia)- I suppose they already are? LOL. #22 what is no.2 studying about ? ( Sylvia)- o.o books? #23 when was the last time you had a chat with no.3 (Zoenin) - Last band practice :D #24 what kind of music does no.8 like(Grace) - She likes loads of songs man. #25 Does no.1 has any siblings? (Jennie)- Yup. #26 will you woo no.3? (Zoenin) - Of course, I already did heh heh. #27 how about no.7? (Hsiaotien)- Yesh shes my stead already :P #28 is no.4 single? (Cherie) - No shes double. T.T #29 what's the surname of no.5? (Felicia) - Ng #30 what's the hobby of no.4? (Cherie) - Shopping? #31 does no.5 and 9 get along well?(Felicia & Lihui) - Yup defintely. #32 where is no.2 studying at?(Sylvia)- RV #33 talk something casually about no.1 (Jennie)- NEHHHHHHH~ #34 have you tried developing feelings for no.8 (Grace)- Yesh, it succeeded. #35 where does no.9 live at (Lihui)- Senjaaaaa. #36 what color does no.4 like (Cherie)- Greeen #37 are no.5 and 1 best friends (Felicia & Jennie) - LOL nope. #38 does no.7 like no.2 ? (Sylvia & Hsiaotien)- LOL they dont know each other man. #39 how do you get to know no.2?(Sylvia)- MY ABM :D. #40 does no.1 have any pets? (Jennie)- Dont think have. #41 is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world? (Hsiaotien)- MAYBE EH. This quiz is tiring LOL. Homework left with summary table for geog, chao xie (left it in school T.T) and one quarter of maths. Dang it still got so much GRAHS. I WANNA WATCH SOME MOVIES - get smart - dont mess with zohan - hancock - wanted sian, but something bad happened at home and today's movies to watch hancock is cancelled. T.T argh. /
Check out my there ARE supposed to be MORE pictures. T.T of me and kimberly camwhore, me and farah and loads more! BUT, you know th reason yeah ): OHRIGHT! pictures credited from zoenin and xueqiang! :D  LOOKIIEEE :D yay rvcb (:  ahaha farah is cute in here withher cookie :D  not really the section cause dont have jiayi, sebby, valerie, daphine, candy!  YAY look we condemn sebby LOL he looks kinda condemned heh. hohoho. thats all for today. (: Labels: pictures Saturday, July 05, 2008
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you take one minute to make a decision, but you will need to live with it for the rest of your lives.its like, i just dont get it. Heyho people, changed my url and skin. I can reassure you i will change this skin again LOL. It's so not me alright. No good skins lately. Bear with it AHAHAHA. I am like posting even more at my private blog than the public one already T.T Uh. Went for guitar after two weeks, finalliiieeeee. Srsly, i like my guitar class. Hoho. Its like, the room is cramped BUT its full of music, and practice, and everyone is joking at th right time, serious at the right time, and when pair by pair plays the melody, it feels so nice whoowhee. We aint bonded like what you think, but we are bonded by the music we play. Its kinda nice feeling yknow. Uhwell. I have many resolutions for the next half of the year. And with the time rushing me along, I think the first thing i need is. SLEEEEEEEP. as you may know, im the sleeping beauty. NO LUH JUST JOKING AHAHA. But i must ensure that I WILL SLEEP FOR AT LEAST 10 HOURS for today (: heh heh. Ohyeah, saw this cute and shuai guy, with good fashion good face eyes ears mouth. Then when he got off the LRT, the first thing i saw him took out was a cigratte. OMG LUH SO WASTED CANZXCZXC. No wonder he sort of looks so tired luh! ): I srsly wonder why people choose to do this. You may take one minute to learn a puff, to make a choice you wanna take your first puff. And then you regret it for life, because you may never get off this addiction. Its scary, really. Shall reply tags for now (:
Labels: sleep, tagreplies, wasted Wednesday, July 02, 2008
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Dont try to mess me up more, i mean it.i can type this whole thing in caps in font size 100 and i wont even freakingly care who reads it who thinks of it how your thinking of me is gonna change because i just feel so freakingly everything right now. i know this is a public blog so i shall vent everything on my private one later on. im sad disappointed uncertain of every single thing. you wanna hear whats going on lately? Its all a disaster. Nothing is coming out the right way. Every single freaking thing is off the track. And all i get from all th people around me are disappointed faces. I HATE THE LOOK OF DISAPPOINTMENT ON ANYONE'S FACES, including mine. maybe i should just STOP THINKING THAT AS LONG AS PEOPLE DONT SHOW IT PEOPLE REALLY DONT MEAN IT. STOP THINKING THAT EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT EVEN IF YOU DONT DO ANYTHING. STOP THINKING THAT EVEN IF THE WORLD COMES DOWN ON YOU THRS GONNA BE SOMEONE THR. STOP THINKING THAT YOU ARE WORTH IT AND UP TO IT. I dont know what to do, what to say what to feel about everything going on here, right now. I cant find a place to settle my thoughts, or just to think through everything. Because i end up having a huge headache. I'm afraid to open my eyes one day to see that everything of me is falling apart. Because i can feel it coming. SO WHAT IF YOU TRIED YOUR BEST TO MAINTAIN EVERYTHING? it doesnt mean once you have made the best out of it, means you have done your best. it doesnt mean doing your best means its the best. it doesnt mean its the best for you means its the best for everyone else. it doesnt mean youve tried very hard to improve to keep up to buck up IT WILL WORK. CAUSE IT NEVER DOES. IT NEVER WILL. &you know what. im crazy im lousy everything now is getting worse. It doesnt mean trying your best is enough, isnt it. Because best is supposed to be the best. i know saying all these wont help, wont make a difference, and not believing in myself is just gonna bring me down even more. I JUST WANNA VENT, OKAY?! JUST WHEN I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS GONNA BE OVER. THINGS JUST HAVE TO COME UP. THEY JUST HAVE TO. one by one, its really, really killing me. i have to set priorities, make choices i would regret but i have no choice to make. it just, JUST HAVE TO HAPPEN THIS WAY. one of the times when you feel sick. Sick of believing in yourself. i will feel better. i will smile and laugh like no one cares. The faith will be back. Because i just need a place to vent. |