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Tuesday, March 11, 2008 / ha, im just so. as in, whats the use of emo-ing here when i wont ever be any of notice to you? whats the point, whats the use of thinking and waiting, when i know theres never going to be any chance? its all a unrequited thingy that is bugging in my heart, and i just wanna let go of it. well, it is just so hard yeah? but guess what. in this week, im going to kill this bug. because you dont care, you dont give a damn about me, im just invisible as i can be. so ive thought it through, theres no use, no point. im just deceiving myself, giving myself false hopes when you dont even care to notice. i dont know why im doing this, typing this and everything. just makes myself a cuckoo bird you know? making myself think that hey guess what? im letting go when i know its so hard to do that but still im scolding myself here to get rid of that bug and live life as per normal, without you, but is it possible? i ask myself. nothing's impossible right. but i slowly realise, you know nothing about me, you dont care to ask, or to do anything about it, and i know nothing about you because you never seem to say. and im tired, tired of all this crap and nonsensical feeling that isnt working out, nothing is working out. im just ranting here like nobody else would ever care, especially you. its hard, but its something i have to go through to stop myself from getting deep cuts in my heart. why am i doing this, you ask me. why am i so stupid to be part of this, you ask me. why am i emo-ing here, you ask me. stop emo-ing, you tell me. its okay, slowly, time lets it go, you tell me. its like im just pretending im moving on, when its like, i cant forget you at all. argh?! i cant help myself, i cant stop myself, i dont know what to do. in your heart, theres always a place for her, and no one else, and im just someone you can never seem to feel. SO WHATS THE USE OF WAITING? ohgosh im so damn screwed up. im going all cuckoo, cuckoo, cuckoo. *KIMyee(: 11o3o8 8.39pm 8:28 PM