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Saturday, February 16, 2008 / i hate to see disappointment. yet i always get them. im trying but i still suck. yesh, im emo again. yesh, scream at me for being emo again. jus yell at me scold me and whatever. i dont want rant here anymre.. today started out fugging badly. im screwed times 1oooo. screwed in everything thingg. just emo in all sorts. i dont even know what im thinking, what you are thinking, what im doing. i'll get over it. hopefully. byebye. //edit// ohyeahs, thankyou block nose, you made me unable to smell anything, and i cant even breathe properly. you made my day yeah. i will be learning how to let go. its surprising how one sentence from the internet saved me. but thats just one problem solved. its better than nothing i guess. maths is killing me like a drug, ive forgotten everything : X goodlucks for my tests then. yes, goodluck to everyone for their tests next week as well. jiayoujiayou lerh! im like a mindless doll walking around pointlessly. my mind isnt into the maths revision paper, yet i know its dang important for the test. haish, bigbig problem. grahhhhhs! ive been stuffing myself with chocolates that now i can feel my new layer of fats forming? -.- hmm yeah. but chocolates are still loved. i wonder how loved things are just so negative on the other side. why cant they be perfect and nice because they are loved? one answer. cause nothing is perfect. right, im being so contradicting. i looked around my room and found out a lot of things. a lot of things that remind me about the past. and made me think; was i happier and contented more than now? its just a hard question for me yeah. in the past, the stress didnt really come out from me. instead, i was stressing on other stuffs, friendships and relationships between my cousins. and now, the stress, real stress is really being created by my own worrying. i just have to worry, i dont know why. im sorry if you get pissed by my over-worrying that gets me like so dang emo. its just, like that. isit cause im influenced by the past? i wonder.. or is it just an excuse? why cant i give my mind a break? hah. so many questions i just cant seem to answer. do i even have the right to advise and tell people to cheer up when i cant even do it myself? i never used to have these problems in primary school, but probably its just a good thing as well? yet "in life, its just like photography. you use the negatives to develop" bigbig paragraph of reflection. aah funny. im feeling better already. sorry if you had to read that. =X maybe i just gotta be used to it, learn to let go, and get some faith in myself. but its always easier said than done right? 11:27 AM