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Even if I cry a thousand tears tonight, K Y ♥ i live by the quote : " IM TINY BUT IM BIG. " I think patrick and purple is HOT and being retarded is cool. (ok maybe not really.) Pure 100% retard, 100% sugarfree jellybean, 0% fat free, 100% proud bandsmen, and part of the Efamily and rvklarinutz. o81194. kenicko_dreamz@hotmail. I am lucky to have great people in my life! :) "things change the way we feel. and things change."

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Thursday, February 28, 2008 / i feel so 痛苦 now. tsktsk. i dont know why. feel 痛苦 physically and mentally. urgh! i cant stand it! >< im like feeling dang cold and my mind is practically sort of closing down. whats wrong you ask? i also dont know. the weather seem to get colder each minute, and my mind seem to shut down every moment. i feel exhausted, but im not, physically. its those kind of mental problems i have. like, pms?! LOLLLL. just a minute ago, i sat on my chair and all the thoughts started flowing in. >< haiyooo. dont think too much luh TKY! one second i go WhEEEEEEE. the other i just shut up and stone. GRAHS. i hate this i hate this. and at the same time, the same thing can create and destroy your mood. and make or ruin your day. every little thing can get you WHOOOO. and every other can just make you go "yeahyeah" somethings just tend to get too boring.. like when she goes up to you and "blinkblink", 'you understand?' and you go 'yeahhhhhhhh'. and you fall asleep and wakes up, finding that youve got notes to copy. your desk partner nudge you and tell you shes looking. you turn around and there she starts her blinking at you again. -.- if you do get what i mean that is. and then at some other times people ask you whats wrong. you said nothing, but once you turn away you whisper, EVERYTHING IS WRONG, but who really understands anyway? whereas sometimes you feel zihigh but someone around you feel emo-lised. and when you ask, that person says its okay, nothing's wrong. but you know something is wrong, yet you dont know what you can do to help. emotions can make you emotionless. fear, worry, angry, emo, high, happy. sometimes lifes like a masquerade. you wont be able to see whats on someone's mind always. its hidden under different types of masks, behind each unique mask, is someone you wont ever see. typing more and more already. -.- yeah, :D im feeling hotter now ehs. hahahah! ilovejapgraf! but i cant playyyyy. danG. sometimes life is just as bad as the times when you cant play your highhigh C, and you tend to scream because you cant reach it, while sometimes life is like when you play a song you love, and the passion just rises. :D you know, although failures help you grow, but once you get so sick of failing, you are too tired to get up. do you even care, sometimes i wonder. hah. im imagining too much already. waiting for something impossible, im so stupid, so dumb. i know the ending, but still i want it to happen? nah, maybe not anymore. NAHHHH. im not emo. im pure happppyyyy :D 8:30 PM