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Friday, February 29, 2008 / its a fact that will stay forever. dangggG! my stupid msn has stupid problems. DANNNGGGGG >< i hate it when msn has problems. *knocks on the screen* urggggghhhhh >< shucks, shall not feel so fanzx. haven eaten my dinner, im still full from the green tea >< wheeewheeee. before the rain came this morning, the sky was like, in shades of purple canzxz! man its like darndarndarnn coooooool! i love purple :D gave yc his guailan present. although its a bit guailan, but still hope you will like it! hehes :D i slept through malay totally. zomg sleeping in malay rocks please. LOL. i love to sleeeeeep! :D the rest of the day was mostly as boring, just going through papers and stuff. except for science practical! i like the apples. :D and then, cca was not bad today. :D sectionals was more high :D i love clarinets! :D ahahaha. okay fine im being stupid. went home with yc, cr, roy, fer, hui and linda. i tried to stare at the pole hoping it would bend. i think im srsly retarded. but since people could do it on spoons? i shall make history by doing it on poles. so if suddenly the 963 you took broke down, perhaps its because i bend the poles!! :D:D:D fine im being DUMB. >< right, in case you didnt noticed, this post is extremely stupid, and is just for the usage of killing time >< and i mentioned four of my loves. -.- ahahahahahahaha. byebye. (: when the world comes crashing down onto you, ill be there to help you carry it along. 8:09 PM Thursday, February 28, 2008 / i feel so 痛苦 now. tsktsk. i dont know why. feel 痛苦 physically and mentally. urgh! i cant stand it! >< im like feeling dang cold and my mind is practically sort of closing down. whats wrong you ask? i also dont know. the weather seem to get colder each minute, and my mind seem to shut down every moment. i feel exhausted, but im not, physically. its those kind of mental problems i have. like, pms?! LOLLLL. just a minute ago, i sat on my chair and all the thoughts started flowing in. >< haiyooo. dont think too much luh TKY! one second i go WhEEEEEEE. the other i just shut up and stone. GRAHS. i hate this i hate this. and at the same time, the same thing can create and destroy your mood. and make or ruin your day. every little thing can get you WHOOOO. and every other can just make you go "yeahyeah" somethings just tend to get too boring.. like when she goes up to you and "blinkblink", 'you understand?' and you go 'yeahhhhhhhh'. and you fall asleep and wakes up, finding that youve got notes to copy. your desk partner nudge you and tell you shes looking. you turn around and there she starts her blinking at you again. -.- if you do get what i mean that is. and then at some other times people ask you whats wrong. you said nothing, but once you turn away you whisper, EVERYTHING IS WRONG, but who really understands anyway? whereas sometimes you feel zihigh but someone around you feel emo-lised. and when you ask, that person says its okay, nothing's wrong. but you know something is wrong, yet you dont know what you can do to help. emotions can make you emotionless. fear, worry, angry, emo, high, happy. sometimes lifes like a masquerade. you wont be able to see whats on someone's mind always. its hidden under different types of masks, behind each unique mask, is someone you wont ever see. typing more and more already. -.- yeah, :D im feeling hotter now ehs. hahahah! ilovejapgraf! but i cant playyyyy. danG. sometimes life is just as bad as the times when you cant play your highhigh C, and you tend to scream because you cant reach it, while sometimes life is like when you play a song you love, and the passion just rises. :D you know, although failures help you grow, but once you get so sick of failing, you are too tired to get up. do you even care, sometimes i wonder. hah. im imagining too much already. waiting for something impossible, im so stupid, so dumb. i know the ending, but still i want it to happen? nah, maybe not anymore. NAHHHH. im not emo. im pure happppyyyy :D 8:30 PM / swifting past like running notes. im broke, im selling my waii. D: for tendollars. anyone wants it? hey hes in a total new condition. had the last test for this term today. *clapsclapclaps hard* :DDDD yaye! hahahaha. okay fine im retarded. -.- lol, and then mucus was the main highlight today! people were playing around with mucus. NO, not the greeeeen mucus. :D bees were flying all around our level today. heard they were honey bees? people came and sprayed stuffs at them. and then they came falling down like rain. urgh, poor thing! D: grahhhh i totally like, dozed off again during LANGARTS. hellllooooo...? i want ms leeyang backkk D: sianzxzx. this post is boring, no, all my posts are boring.. byebye! heeeeeee. i still love waii. IM JUST KIDDING. nowayy im selling him manzxz! :D LOL this picture will make sense unless you know what it is talking about :D its over, but im still hanging on. its over, im still keeping it. its over, tankimyee. 6:47 PM Tuesday, February 26, 2008 / a cube has 6faces, whereas we have 6 X manymany faces. *BANGS HEAD TO THE WALL* hi people. :D theres this weird looking big bouquet of pink and yellow flowers at my house, for apparently some unknown weird reason. eeyer. *shivers* hmm, so like. talked with my mother last night. told me about my dad when he was in the twenties. i can really figure out why my mum actually fell in love with him already. although love is blind, it leads you the right way at times. love aint perfect, so arent we. (: lets move on to today. welllllls. i ran 2.4 with kimberly and daphine. actually wanted to go find jiayi, but in the end didnt. im sorry jiayi! it was raining at first, somehow the sky just wanna tease me luh! Lols, buthen aiyah, it was okay. although the timing was like chao pathetic. -.- so tmrw we need to run again which is, for the wed to fri one. and on friday we need to run again because there wasnt much people running on the past two days. sianzxzx pleaseeeeeee, let me run fast lehhhhhhhhhh -.- im pathetically slow luh uh. yeah topple over your chair and laugh at my noobness now. -.- grahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. today chinese was funnaye. had to draw up this comic for zhugeliang's story. grouped with felicia, cari and veron. totally laughed my ass off. our comic rockssss man! :D hahahah damn cute!! :D i miss the pig liver in science lab! right, not really. it stained my hands with the smell of it. eeeeeyer. LOL. buthen it was cool, seeing how hydrogen peroxide reacted with it. ahahahaha. enzymes -.- ohyeah, sec ones got their house groupings and all. shucks, many from 1D got into unicorn! AND minotaur :D :D :D aiyah dont make a difference. im a loner in minotaur luhs D: i dread every house event man D: but still i like minotaur. HURH. LOLoooooooool. had cca today as well. sectionals full day O.O march blue sky plus olympiada! :D our BM four years ago came back as well. so the band camp was actually organised by him and other two seniors. manzxzx i think its going to be a training camp! aaaahhhhhhhhh!~~~ know our groupings as well. this time im in grp5, under xueqiang! manxzxz i dont have fate with any of the groups. always change one D: just hope the camp wont be too tough. like what i told jennie, i sort of loooook forward to it, but sort of doooont as well. -.- yesh im weird. kimberly told me today "IMPOSSIBLE" actually means IM, POSSIBLE. gosh, really true. and sebastian said TONE actually is made up of NOTE. gosh, really really true eh. LOL, im chao random. gim came back today! lihe as well ahahas. band ended at around 630. sorry cheng, cr, fer and hui for waiting for me! thankkkkss loadss manxzx. :D tky, REMEMBER ART MATERIALS AND PHOTOCOPY SCORE AND CORRECTION TAPE REFILLL!!! :D dont forget. alright, shall end here already. byebye! ha-waii 'it all takes time and trust.' 8:44 PM Monday, February 25, 2008 / if i could have all the fun and laughter in the world, i would make sure everyone smiles and have fun every single day. :D hahaha. i like weiying's personal message! :D "If only there aint Russo-Jap war, Germany allies: there wouldnt be history test !" very true eh? (: hehehe. :D ILOVESHIM. :D 7:19 PM Sunday, February 24, 2008 / the days past as usual, i walk along the same old road, i breathe in the same old air, i take the same old bus. but everytime, its a different timing. everytime, its with a different feeling. sometimes i take heavy steps, sometimes my legs feel so light. sometimes im alone, sometimes im with someone i love. sometimes i look up at the sky and see the hues of pink and orange, sometimes i look up at the sky and see only blue and white. different emotions at different times, different expressions with different moods. flashbacks of the day pass through my mind, seem to distract me all of a sudden. and then i fall into a daze and start to think. and then unknowingly, i may start to cry. or i may just laugh out loud. thats one main big difference why we aint robots/clones. and thats one big difference why we are drifting apart. and thats why we are going to regret it soon. tell me, are things going to stay like this? maybe its best to let nature takes its course. (: when you have to let go, let go. sometimes holding on too tightly may suffocate yourself. the memories still cling on. reflectingalone;thinkingthrough. 10:06 PM / not like you will ever see this i guess, but still, HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIMJUNYUAN! :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY STANLEY PAI! :D /EDIT/ LOLS. okay, due to some special demands o.O? hahah, now he shall be called, WAII! why is he called waii? i also dont know LOL. no luh, in order to remember felicia ng. i named him WAII! :D WHY is WAII WAII? LOL. :D i love my waii. <3 2:09 PM Saturday, February 23, 2008 / i gazed up at the stars and found out my tears outnumbered them. yesterday's episode of zack and cody was totally hilarious. well, at least to me heh. my brother and i laughed our ass off. LOLS. seem lame luh, but really very cute. everyone was imitating everyone else man. slacked and napped and slacked and did some history yesterday. i was so bored i actually volunteered to help my mum with the housework =X been long since ive volunteered to do so leh. i feel guilty =XX tmr's lang arts test. and on thursday there's history. and next week we are getting back our tests papers. yeah, so not looking forward. GAHHHH. but anyway, JIAYOUJIAYOU! anyone has patrick star phone theme? i want it! i want it i want it! D: i found one but it was the only theme that was, C O R R U P T E D. eeeeeeeyer. -.- shall stop my crapping here. goodbye. thousand miles away, ive stopped thinking of you. feeling the wind blowing straight in my face, i turned on the radio and party all night through. you see the difference? i bet you wont ever see it. 11:52 PM / 爱一个人, 不是要希望他幸福? 爱一个人, 不是如果他笑，你也会笑吗? 可是为什么他笑的时候，他幸福的时候， 心里却那么难受? 真的就那么难放得下吗? 为什么爱一个人那么痛苦? 永远都不会被留意到， 因为我在你心里，我什么都不是，对吗? 你会了解吗? 既然爱一个人那么痛苦， 不如就算了，不爱了。 已经尽力了，却还是那么烂。 练习，有用。 可是为什么我还是一样得糟? 是我天生就这样笨，又没用对吧? 也许，妈妈把我生下来，是一个很大的错误。 我会坚强吗? 我还会坚持下去吗? 应该会吧。 总不能天天都这样吧。 就算是这样，还是会有日出，日落。 日出，新的一天。 日落，一天就这样过了。 life's like that, isnt it? people come and go. we never know whats surprising going to happen next the following day. ************************************ enough of that yeah? (: lols, im not EMO. im smilinggggg. :D aye, weekend lehhhh. i want go watch moovie again! muahahahaha. no luh, cannot be. im only left with one red note to last the whole week. mannnzxzx. tests aint ended yet as well. ohyeah, ive eaten indian rojak. its different from malay or chinese one leh! whereby you get mixed sauce with peanuts with veg and fruits right? NOOO. indian rojak is nicee tooo! (: its different as you have a plate of veg and this kind of special cracker. and then you dip it into this little bowl of sauce. iits helllllaaa niceee! =X i think im being very kiasu. -.- jacob says all of us need to perform one gutar solo/duet on enrichment week. im so gonna pon it. im like, pathetic mann. im just gonna embarrass myself. yeah. okay enough crapping here. shall slack a bit and then... err. slack more? lols. toooodles! :D looloo tells me yet again "confidence is very important" -.- 11:18 AM Friday, February 22, 2008 / from what you see isnt what it is. feeling empty and tired. >< dont wanna talk anymore. crap. just feel like sleeping for a longlonglonglong time. maths paper successfully murdered kimyee. crying over spilled milk. you never were there, but its okay. thinking of everything alone is sometimes such a bliss. (: 8:30 PM Thursday, February 21, 2008 / /edit/ okay luh bro i love you to the core. thanks for helping me return the books -.- yaye you! yes my brother rocks. -.- its hard to see you like this and i cant do anything to help. its time pathetic-ness took over and all. i feel extremely pathetic. gosh, my matsh is like shit alright. i just wish for a pass. a simple PASS. the gpa increases like mad once you have to 'level up' in a sense. its like a rpg game you know, the higher level you are, the more experience required. great, i dont know why im laming about here when tmr is the day. tests are like mad stuffs mass killing braincells. they should be sued for a murder. or manslaughter.. -.- polygons? surface area? arcs? volume? HURH?! -.- sianzxzx. seriously, i think im desperate for tuition. i shall learn yuning's tatic. FREE UNLIMITED CHOCOLATES FOR A TUTOR! -.- hais. hopefully tmr isnt a bad day. today was sleepy again as well. art was totally slackish for me. get a F, a E, a D, a C? defintely not a B or a A. grats, screwwwwwwwwwww. but not screw maths. was determined to survive for at least maths lesson. i succeeded! greeat, but im still here trying to figure out the number of zeros. -.- if you get what i mean that is. end here liao luh, jiayou people for all the tests alright. mugmugmugmugmug! (; { they say disney should be sued for lying to girls that happily ever after and princes do exist. } bombom wants a change of name. looloo then O.O i will get him a mirror so he can see his forehead (: see im a nice master! :D people kept violating him today. now he cant pee! =X LOLS. byebye. 6:22 PM Wednesday, February 20, 2008 / its too good i fear its a dream; its such a fantasy i know its a dream. today started out with zengfeng shocking me out by standing opposite me after i woke up from my sleep on the bus. ahahahah. weird LOLS. and then had this ultimate running. LOL. okay luh, not really like, ultimate. 2.4km as usual with my section. hey, we improved! hahahs. but hey, its still a bad timing O.O on the bright side, and on the dark side. hmmm, the day went on fine. ohyes, lydia passed away yesterday. i still remember those times i watched her show on tv when i was really young can! D: man i look at her pictures really got me thinking how fragile life is. another great person, great actress just left the world. the next generation, will it be as good? ahahah. i figured out chinese isnt today. its on friday. whoops =X MY LIBRARY BOOK IS DUE TWO WEEKS BEFORE! -.- my fine is getting heavier each day. but im still too lazy. =X hmm okay uh i shldnt post everyday alr. :D okay thats all byebye(: go chiong art hahahaha. bombom tells me that i really love clarinets. because they made my impossible possible (: 5:13 PM Tuesday, February 19, 2008 / living in a wonderful oh so fantastic dream. i slept in CID! hahahahah. like, totally woke up and found myself not knowing what the hell the teacher was talking about. find a good seat in com lab 3 and there, you can dream all you wish! :D didnt get to present, sianzxzx. i think jean's group is not bad, ours too chim alr luh. D: xiangxiang one was interesting. band was not bad, sianzxzx jieying didnt get my brown case luh! D: maybe its quite a good thing. LOL. cause its still condemned anyway ahaha. ms chan says we must run twice a week. that means we have to run like, 3times of 2.4km a week lehhhhh. not bad, say byebyebye to my fats! :D ohyeah, guess what. i was absolutely right. i totally flunked my science theory. like, really flunking. :D not enough time, and short term memory. my mind was blank for the statistical analysis table i tell you. great, there goes, one bomb dropping down and kills kimyee. no cooking for dinner tonight. booooooo! ahahah suddenly miss mum's cooking so much D: i just ate it like, 2days ago. -.- hokkien mee hokkien mee kway chap kway chap roti prata roti prata sushi sushi! *DROOOOLS* O.O mannnnnn D: chinese test tommorrow. dont know what to study. maybe just going to finish up art. -.- ARTTT. grats. hmm hmm mummy calling. byebye peepo! (: { only bound to make things worse } bombom told me the answer today. he said, please dont live in this dream anymore. its time to let go, you know hes never possible. thankyou bombom. 7:20 PM Monday, February 18, 2008 / i know whats your answer in my heart already , long ago perhaps. hehehehe i have a cute daddy! :D hes blaming himself cause he just spent the last 2hours mending a hole in the wall with a stain removal O.O rather than something else which i dont know. hes laughing madly at his blur-ness. hahahah nvm luh, its okayyyyyy uh dad! :D im going bonkers over math man seriously. theres so many numbers i feel like sleeping on them. aah gosh, its 10pm and i havent started on it. revision 2 lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh D: stupid conversion of units. STUPID MATHS! D: grahhhhhhhh. hmm, i revised science halfway. and revised through the discussion for three times. and due to kimyee's small brain, i cant manage to memorise anything. :D gosh, im seriously stupidddddd. had no dinner and im dang hungry. ever heard of doing math with an empty stomach, the numbers wont come out. LOL. HELLO. you think my brain cells too many isit? you think my brain so big isit? LOL. im being retarded. "I CANT SEE MY FOREHEAD!" :D 10:10 PM / dont take it as a subsitute. rahhhhhhhhh. i doubt many knows my new link, buthen bo bian already! i cant change my link backkk D: because its like, they dont allow the hifen to be used at the back luh. so, aiyah suan lerh. :D tests and tests and tests. hmm, one test is down only for today. still many goingg. jiayouujiayouu! (: muahahah. today was quite a nice day lehh. i laughed my head off at the start of the day already. muahahahaha. i love the six of them please. :D started off with my exaggerated face of NOOOOOOOOOOO when we were talking outside the classroom. and then was shimin's accidentally exaggerated fierce act. i seriously had a pretty good laugh hahahaha! ohyeah, did i mention? we got a F again for class cleanliness. BOOOOOOOOO! thumbs down thumbs down! we are like, the only class who got a F. uhhhhhhhhhhh. we did do class cleaning lehhhh. somemore had MASS cleaning arh! and suaysuay maybe they checked during the day we had art =X nvm, maybe placing the chairs on our desks helps. hahahah. but hey, come to tihnk of it, whats so bad about a, F? F for fantastic right. :D talks were the main highlight for today also. like, just plain talking about a main topic and moving on. talking rocks! :D ahahahah. makes you think and reflect and think and reflect. and regret and improve and regret and improve. im repeating those words. lol. yes, and that reminds me too! i dont want a change of seatttttt. i love my seatttttt. ohplease chengyu, DONT change my seat? i love the window, more air circulation yeahhhh? i dont have good mouth or nose you know.. =X suddenly i wanna run. WOW, like, kimyee, did you just said you wanna run? ZOMG. yesh i did. hahahaha. okay luh, to run to kind of like, practise a bit before wed comes? if not im going to tuo1 lei4 the section again lehhhh. hahah okayokay. shall end of here to revise science theory. hope i wont flunk. :D jiayou jellybeans! <3 { cheerup okay, you rock my world and i will always be here one. dont worry too much, jiayoujiayou alrights! :D is it true? youve made sense though, made a lot of sense. and ive completed my thinking. it will be confirmed as i continue to walk along. or maybe its destiny's choice. } today, bombom my beloved starfish told me, to confirm my heart, i need to know, how much i actually mean. and he asked me,"who is the first person you think of when you close your eyes and sing?" 5:07 PM Sunday, February 17, 2008 / im sorry if you think i hadnt cared about you or neglected you. im sorry i told you everything thinking that im not siding with her. i was wrong, cause always im the one telling you and not telling her instead. i dont know how to tell you, i dont wanna side with anyone. i dont only care about her, girl. i care about you too. its not easy at all. i understand, but its very hard for me. seeing you like this makes me hate myself you understand? because i didnt do a good job being a friend. im sorry if i said anything wrong. i dont want things to become like this. i keep telling you, but whats the point when i also didnt tell the other side? so maybe im wrong too. its already the second year, its already near to the end? i dont know, im afraid, yet i dont know what to do to improve this situation. i didnt do a good job didnt i? i care about both of you, BOTH. im not siding anyone. i dont wanna hurt anyone. but still, im not improving anything. either side gotta understand you know? if not, things will stay like this and worsen. im sorry. 8:37 PM / unloaded emotions i shan't say much why i changed everything. just thought a lot through and thought that i shouldnt really, be so emo everytime, and seriously, i should start thinking and look on the bright side. :D ive longed wanna change a url! (: hahah, sorry people for the trouble, needa relink me lerh! :D at least not today, not today. if its over let it go. 5:57 PM / the murderer within killing piece by piece. i just realised all rvian's vocab is like, chao bang one. except for mine, like duhhhhh. =X my vocab has been poor since i was born. yaye me! : D right, im feeling gooooode today. just a bit insecure of the tests. the dang math revision is like pulling me down and down and mking me nervous cause i srsly do not know how to do. hmmm, going to watch jumper later cause my brother insists on watching? mum says relax a bit, dont get stressed up. hellllllloooooo...? im slacking down here and im getting tensed up because im not studying. oops. =XX loads of peopo says jumper is nice. certainly hope so! :D going to catch the 1.3opm slot. (: finished like, only one layer of art. i regretted much by drawing so many things, and so many patterns. so in the end i sort of cheated :P i coloured most of it black. and some of the parts i didnt bother to cut. ohwell, as long as i dont get a F im happy alr. cause seriously, i hate penknives. especially when they are used for art. isnt scissors so much more loved? :D tried asking my parents to help em cut leh. but surprisingly, they took 10minutes to cut an octopus head. LOL. no luh, not so bad. buthen yeah in the end i still cut them all. its okay, i still love them ahahahah. :D oh, by th way, i changed my blogsong. *obvious* LOL. hmm, its wo bu pei by jaychou :D you are the creater and the destroyer. reminders; GET COLOUR PAPER! :D 11:57 AM Saturday, February 16, 2008 / i hate to see disappointment. yet i always get them. im trying but i still suck. yesh, im emo again. yesh, scream at me for being emo again. jus yell at me scold me and whatever. i dont want rant here anymre.. today started out fugging badly. im screwed times 1oooo. screwed in everything thingg. just emo in all sorts. i dont even know what im thinking, what you are thinking, what im doing. i'll get over it. hopefully. byebye. //edit// ohyeahs, thankyou block nose, you made me unable to smell anything, and i cant even breathe properly. you made my day yeah. i will be learning how to let go. its surprising how one sentence from the internet saved me. but thats just one problem solved. its better than nothing i guess. maths is killing me like a drug, ive forgotten everything : X goodlucks for my tests then. yes, goodluck to everyone for their tests next week as well. jiayoujiayou lerh! im like a mindless doll walking around pointlessly. my mind isnt into the maths revision paper, yet i know its dang important for the test. haish, bigbig problem. grahhhhhs! ive been stuffing myself with chocolates that now i can feel my new layer of fats forming? -.- hmm yeah. but chocolates are still loved. i wonder how loved things are just so negative on the other side. why cant they be perfect and nice because they are loved? one answer. cause nothing is perfect. right, im being so contradicting. i looked around my room and found out a lot of things. a lot of things that remind me about the past. and made me think; was i happier and contented more than now? its just a hard question for me yeah. in the past, the stress didnt really come out from me. instead, i was stressing on other stuffs, friendships and relationships between my cousins. and now, the stress, real stress is really being created by my own worrying. i just have to worry, i dont know why. im sorry if you get pissed by my over-worrying that gets me like so dang emo. its just, like that. isit cause im influenced by the past? i wonder.. or is it just an excuse? why cant i give my mind a break? hah. so many questions i just cant seem to answer. do i even have the right to advise and tell people to cheer up when i cant even do it myself? i never used to have these problems in primary school, but probably its just a good thing as well? yet "in life, its just like photography. you use the negatives to develop" bigbig paragraph of reflection. aah funny. im feeling better already. sorry if you had to read that. =X maybe i just gotta be used to it, learn to let go, and get some faith in myself. but its always easier said than done right? 11:27 AM Friday, February 15, 2008 / Up next, a dedicated post to Felicia Ng Wai Mun <3 firstly, of course if to wish this crazy loved girl a happy birthday! (: may all your wishes come true and be happy always; stay pretty, retarded and keep that smile up always;/. knowing you was like, one of th greatest thing in my 13years of life. although we have only been friends for like, a year? but it seem like we have been friends for like, forever. :D i dont know how much i can thankyou and thank god for letting me have you as a friend man. :D thanks for being there always, for always saying the right thing, for being a true friend, for making me realise coming into rv was such a right choice, for sharing every great moment with me, and crazily laughing with me. (: honoured hohs? hahah (: youve been really a great friend. the feeling just came on the first day in rv, and it just slowly increases our friendship value. now its already the second year, its going to pass really soon.. and everything will not be the same ever ever again. things will change soo much.. but still, i just dont want to think about it, and i just want to tell you that you will forever be the only felicia baobei! :D fourteen already, must still keep the kid in you arhs! (: HAPPY BIRTHDAYDAY FELICIA! :D //edit// today was like not bad? hahahs, felicia got loads of prezzies. :D im happy for her :D celebrated for her during break too! and happybirthday darren! :D bought this banana for sebby's valentine's day present. damn retarded bringing a banana up to band room. hahahahah. band was okay today, just a few things to think about. (: im willing to lend you a hand, but its you who is making a choice whether you need that hand, or you just want someone else's. 7:54 PM Thursday, February 14, 2008 / i doubt anyone reads my blog anymore. hmm im bored again -.- yeahs, im always bored. but not bored as in nothing to do. but bored as in too many things to do that i dont know where to start from :D so there goes a post againnnn. next time probably i should find something else to do instead of posting. :D today is valentine's day! yaye people. :D gosh, thanks so much for all th chocolates and cards and everything (: i think this year's valentine's is the most successful one. :D i got th most number of candies and chocolates! (: awww mann really thank you guys loads XD th day started out with science? it was okay. and then followed by math. wow, i almost like, slept again O.O i should buy a slapping machine to slap myself awake. and next was my favourite time, break! :D hahahah, i ate rice and one icecream. yaye ice creams! :D after that was art. i simply so feel like cutting myself up after one hour of penknifing. >< i mean, its just sooooo hard to cut luhs! GAHHHHHS. complicated piece of work >< then came langarts. boy, boy, we have a ____ langarts teacher! =X right... O.O hmmhmm, chinese was next. totally okays. yeahs, and 2pm came, and set off for home. tomorrow, tommorrow. three big thingies happening. :D cca(test?), geog test, and ... ... LOLS. okay luh, FELICIA NG's BIRTHDAY! :D:D:D yaye her! dont worry, your dedicated post will be up tmr! hahah(: wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ right, signing off for now. goodbyes. &good luck? i doubt so. i was moments ago, hours ago. but now i aint. life, the way it seem to be so nice, aint so nice. the way i smile, aint so real. i worry and worry and just cant stop worrying. what the hell is wrong with my brain?! 4:59 PM Wednesday, February 13, 2008 / im terribly sorry to all klarinutz for lian3 lei4-ing you all for the run. because of me it was a slow timing. sorry. anyway, happy early valentine's to all. esp my dear sweethearts (: i love you all :D th 6crazy girls; th animals! :D felicia, lihui, hsiaotien, shimin, grace, cherie. you all are equally loved by th squirrel. XD and, of course, kimberly! muahahah. hehe, thanks for being there always. (: and not forgetting, i love you all people out there too! hehe, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! <3 5:16 PM Tuesday, February 12, 2008 / these two weeeks currently just suddenly popped up and corrupted my mind in a sense. its like, tests, tests, and guess what? -.- more tests luh! D: i mean, the next week is reallyreallyreally filled with tests. chinese, maths, science, history. and then this weeeek? tmr running, today ran, thurs geog test and friday, probably band test. *meows* okay, what a random meow. but nvm, i shall not be too frown-ish. ahah cause of some *ahemahem* reasons. i shall be happier like lihui (: LOLS. i really do suck in running. D: i figured that once your mind get sorted out, its determination that gets you back on track, and pessimistism that gets you off the track. 9:57 PM Sunday, February 10, 2008 / i wanna keep posting until the song im playing finishes. hmm, guess what? look at my face, my blog right now and tell me how im feeling. urgh, im feeling scared, afraid and lazy. reasons? they are longg ones. you really wanna hear? you sure? GAHHHHHS/. right, nevermind. D: well, i'll tell you why i feel lazy. of course, everyone is feeling lazy mahs, bcos tmr is SCHOOL DAY! D: gahhhhhhs. meaning, a new weeeeeek. meaning? more tests, more stress, more homework. aargh, th song is finishing soon!! LOLS, okay. yeahs, so im scared and afraid bcos?? BECAUSE. OF. YOU!!!! ahahahahs, no luhs. im feeling scared and afraid because, i dont want to hai4 the whole klarinutz for wednesday running D; i think i will be th slowest luh. D: hey,the song just finished. -,- nvm, i shall continue to post. i haven finish my homework apparently. left with the last part for history and one question of maths. see luh, my slacking spirit is back. it is saying "heck luh, tmr do luh." O.O uhhhhhhhhhhh. OHYEAH OHYEAH OHYEAH. i brought a patrick keychaineyyyyyyy. :D ahahahah, im loving it i tell you! :D and BOOOOOOOO/. fine luh, SO MANY PEOPLE WATCHED KUNGFU DUNK ALR. WIN LIAO LORH! D: someone ask me out to watch leeeeehhhhh D: and, thats what you think. 8:03 PM / my cousin's going to the moovies. my cousin's going to the moovies! i wannnnnt to gooooooooooooooooo! i wanna watch CJ7 and kungfu dunk. i wanna gooooooooooooooooooooooo! my cousin sort of watched one midnight show and one afternoon one. im like, I WANNA GO! D; -.- tday im going out! YAYE?! dots. aye, to do project. CID project. piaaanngggg ehhhs. very good time luhs uh. to do project. sobs, buthen also bo bian luhs, have to pass up on tuesday. D: goodluck, tky, its soon going to be here. 10:25 AM Saturday, February 09, 2008 / nowadays are junk food, junk food, and more, junk food XP today was rather busy in a sense. went around three houses to bainian. first was my aunt's house, and i ate my favourite biscuit thr. they always have that around, and its like, endless stock. :D yaye! (: hahahah. my cousin gave me my belated present. hehe xiexieni! <33 and then we went over to my great aunt's house. wheeeeeee she rocks my day! :D hahah, shes the only one who said i didnt grow fat luh. XD and shes nice, made cakes for us. :D told you theres junk food. :D lastly we went over to my cousin's house. the house is like chaochaochaochao coooooool. we played billard and poker. i lost money again today D: and billard is niceeeeeee hahahah. watched a chinese moovie there as well. the tv is like big luhs! and the dvd player is like, high techno like siaooo. D: gosh so niceeee D; but you have to drive longlonglong way to get to th city. so, bukit panjang still not bad uh! :D chinese new yearrrrrr. it was only one night. one night. 6:33 PM Thursday, February 07, 2008 / im dying from th dang hot sun. O.O but i think its better than a heavy rain day. :D so today woke up and wished my parents and my grandma happy cny. got my angbaos from them, and then slacked until arnd 12noon, and went to my ah peh's house :D loads of people and shook loads of hands. aahh, so wen nuan hahahah! ate my lunch there and the cny stuffs. wheeeee watched tv, chatted and watched my cousin play psp. LOLS. some of th games very cute man lol. went home after that and probably going out later to th chun dao he pan. im expecting huge crowds and hot weather. but, i still wanna go! hahah, if you have no cny festive mood, try going thr and you will be hugely influenced!for me luhs.. :D tried doing some maths and got distracted soon after. i redrawed one graph twice, and still its wrong. aargh! maths, maths, maths! D: dont know why, this year's cny is a little different for me. whats wrong, i dont know. th one i hoped for isnt the one i expected it. maybe thats the main reason. 4:58 PM / NAH ALFINO! heres your 7feb horoscope. LOL. taurus. You have an absolute determination to accomplish a particular goal and absolutely nothing will stop you. It would be a very foolish person who stands in your way today. There is a danger that you may be a little brusque with friends this afternoon; be honest and they will understand! O.O 3:29 PM Wednesday, February 06, 2008 / HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :D hahahs, time flies so quickly. CNY is already here now! (: today went to school practically only for th celebrations. hahah, quite interesting though. i think th SCs really put in a lot of effort. :D oh yeahs, 2J owned totally again! we got first for the CNY MV! :D i feel like screaming my lungs out ahahahah. then took 963 back to plaza and met up with xinrui, steff and mrs chan! so we chatted a while and i had to go alr. went back home and had lunch, and helped my mum with some stuffs. changed my bedsheet! <3 wheeeeee its baby pooh bear hahahahha. took a bath and slept through th day till 5pm. XD im such a lazy piggggg. :D woke up, did one question of suo duan chang wen, then used com till around 6plus and had reunion dinner! fish, meat, veg, cereal prawn and soupppp! <3 i love my grandma and my mum hahahahahs probably just going to use th computer throughout th night countdowning to tomorrow. yeah, mum says i can invite people over on friday, 8feb. anyone free? you can have free angbaos! LOL :D some people are just not what they seem to be. there's the strong side of them and th weak side of them. everything on stage is just a fake front. whats behind th scenes, sometimes no one knows. 8:04 PM Tuesday, February 05, 2008 / my 3ooth post. :D shall have this post with a picture meaningful enough to celebrate my 3ooth post hahahs. thankyou, thankyou for always being there for me to pick up th mess of my life, for willing to pick up th pieces of my life that has been broken, and fixing it back for me once again. thankyou, thankyou for letting me know someone cares, and someone really understands, and dont mind helping me to mend the broken pieces of me. thankyou loads. (: my dearest jewels of mylife. :D 11:05 PM / yesterday went to aunt's house for a small renuion dinner/buffet! :D okay luhs, was quite funnn. listening to their secondary school life was pretty interesting. and listening to how they suan me that im short and looks like a P6 is quite interesting too. -,- I DO NOT LOOK LIKE A PRIMARY SIX. hellllloooo. im fourteen already! D: okay, 13 to be exact. LOLS. and i went to yahoo to search my name. and heys, all over th world there are loads of people called kimyee! GAHHHHS. COPYCATS LUH! LOL. somemore so many are guys. -,- today was pretty okay. :D i found out the little funny and nice and cute side of sebastian. LOLLLLL. :D yesh, i just said that ahahahahs! :D excos gave us two chocolates too! :D wheeee excos rocks, always have surprises for us hee. tmr is CNY eve alr! YAYE! hahahahahs. meaning, tmr no lesssooons. wheeeeeeeeeeee. although quite a number of hmwk plus CID, but still, heeeeeeeheeeee. redd packets! :D XIN NIAN KUAI LE! WAN SHI RU YI! XIN XIANG SHI CHENG! im intooooo th festive mood alr. HAPPY CNY PEOPLE :D 9:55 PM Sunday, February 03, 2008 / if the sun sets and the sky turns grey; will the world suddenly disappear? will the sun never rise and the rain never stops? i want to treasure every moment. i dont want to regret anything. im sorry for being a jerk. <3 family & friends. 3:54 PM / today im supposed to chiong homework and to feel good. today im supposed to smile all day from the start and work on the langarts test. and now you've spoilt it, again. i dont get it, sometimes i just dont. but im sorry, i know im too guo fen. my mood today should be 2 stars, and not 3 or 4 stars. whatever, i just wanna slack through th day. though its not very possible, -,- cause tmr's thrs loads of stuffs going on. slack,slack,slack. th key word according to my mood. i dont want band to split into senior and junior band. but what can i do? 12:02 PM Saturday, February 02, 2008 / i checked out my horoscope for today :D im getting rich yeahs? LOLS. :D but something is wrong, cause my mood seems like a 5star! :D wheeeeeeeee. somethings can be believed luhs though. Money continues to look rock-solid, but an unwelcome planetary influence suggests that you might be asked or expected to spread yourself too thin. A request from someone for your help or advice should be considered, but don’t let them place all their burdens on your back! Listen to a friend or loved one's plans for the day and you will have a great time, with plenty to laugh about before the day is over. Lucky Numbers: 8, 14, 23, 35, 38, 49 Love: 4stars Mood: 2stars Style: 3stars Money: 4stars 1:02 PM Friday, February 01, 2008 / i just have to, JUST have to say it out, to vent everything out. i cant stand it. come on larh uh, does it hurt if you just keep your mouth shut and dont say anything? does it hurt you so much to actually say it out? why cant you just use your brains and think before you crap those nonsense out luh? please luh, we are all from th same school and everything. except, yeah luh, our ___. so? i dont think thrs any problems with that. i dont seee any problems in that. everything is NOT perfect. NOT ____ so stop assuming that yours is the best or yours is the toughest. come on man, use your brains, use your HEART to feeel. cause im feeling so darn pissed i just feel like screaming at you. i dont know why, but i just dont like what you said. use your heart and thinkkkk. is yours realllllyyyyy the toughest? NONE of THEM IS, let me tell you. ALL of THEM are EQUAL. and i mean, =. unless you are not clear. you just have to make people think about what you say and make me feel so pissed. aargh. whatever.im just venting everything out. so here goes alr :D i know maybe im going to regret wadeva ive just said. but currently, now, at this moment. im feeling unjust, and PISSED. sorraye for th impulsiveness alrights. 11:31 PM / i dont know why my post appears to be in html format. and thrs no way i can like, change it. now adding colours to my post is like a chore. but its kinda alright now, 'cause i kinda like my skin, and it gives me the 'feel' to type and post. :D haven been really posting for like, 3days? well, im not really sure, but around there i guess. posting makes me emo! hahah, no lah. hmm, shall move onto school! :D school has been quite interesting since the start of this week. 'cause we have some taiwan friends with us! :D two guys have been chosen to join our class, allen and yuhsiang. allen is 15 and yuhsiang is 13. we were pretty high on tht day they came. Lols. yuhsiang has pretty big eyes with a cute face xD and allen has a good sense of stylish outfits. today was kind of their last day with us. so they made 'speeches' during assembly heheheh. and, well, not really speech. allen was really cute luhs LOL. im crippled. my leg muscles seem to oppose against my actions. and they want a revolution! D; okay, im plain crapping. if my leg dont get better by monday. let me just kill myself, cause monday most probably have 2.4km. and noooooo. nooo way im running alone some other days. langarts test is on monday as well. craps, i think im going to flunk it cause my langarts notes look like shit. i really wonder if i can read them once again. it would be pretty amazing if i can stay awake for all lessons in a day. :D band ended like, 6.35 today. band was...kind of like a disaster cause im like, pretty useless and everything. but srsly, whats the point of saying all this if im not doing anything? urgh. i shall not wrinkle my face :D reached home at like, 9plus? ate dinner with grace and cherie. (i <3 you kimberly! so sorrryy! D;) hokkien meeeeeeeeeeeee :D really, plus the wintermelontea during break. greeeeeedyyyyy huh. but still, they are the loves of my lifeee :D okay luh, food shall not be mentioned anymore here. muahahahs. :D ohyeah, PSS! hmmmm. i have like, quite a good time this time. :D really lots of thanks to changming and the girls and like, the whole of 1D for this time. could see the whole change of everything man. :D PSL investiture was nice as well. :D loved the publicity decorations. :D okay, i think i shall end here. tmr thrs guitar. hope everything will turn out fine. (: i will still be fine. as th world will still keep turning. 10:15 PM