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Even if I cry a thousand tears tonight, K Y ♥ i live by the quote : " IM TINY BUT IM BIG. " I think patrick and purple is HOT and being retarded is cool. (ok maybe not really.) Pure 100% retard, 100% sugarfree jellybean, 0% fat free, 100% proud bandsmen, and part of the Efamily and rvklarinutz. o81194. kenicko_dreamz@hotmail. I am lucky to have great people in my life! :) "things change the way we feel. and things change."

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Thursday, December 06, 2007 / im tired of being such a noob, tired of practising and still being so noob. tired of worrying about so many things at a time, and still cant find any solution, tired of lying to myself i can do it, tired of saying at least i tried, when i didnt even think i did up to standard. wats wrong with me? im supposed to keep trying, im supposed to be able to do it, because i have to do it. im sick, im tired of this. why cant i just buck up and be strong? why am i so weak? why do i tell people they can do it but me myself just cant? no one likes failing, but one has got to pick him/herself up after falling. im tired of doing it. i have no more energy left to pick myself up. im draining out. i just wanna crap all my days. im sorry to everyone who knows even though i tried but i still cant make it. im just tired, tired of trying, tired of deluding myself about everything. im sorry to everyone who tried to help me and tolerating me, and still i didnt make up to your expectations. i dont know what im thinking about, i just want peace now, i dont wanna think about anything. im tired, i dont wanna grow up anymore. 9:04 PM