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Even if I cry a thousand tears tonight, K Y ♥ i live by the quote : " IM TINY BUT IM BIG. " I think patrick and purple is HOT and being retarded is cool. (ok maybe not really.) Pure 100% retard, 100% sugarfree jellybean, 0% fat free, 100% proud bandsmen, and part of the Efamily and rvklarinutz. o81194. kenicko_dreamz@hotmail. I am lucky to have great people in my life! :) "things change the way we feel. and things change."

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Friday, October 19, 2007 / we seemed like total strangers. maybe not totally, but almost. i dont know if its still there, or maybe its just roaming, and revolving around you and the others, but defintely not me. sometimes its just hard to talk with my heart, when i dont tink you even wanna listen. i feel like someone not there, not even a thing that you would wanna care. its like you just wanna get through from me, and not wat it seems to be. how cruel reality is, ive seen it. and soon i'll get used to it. because i know im just not noticed. i wont point to you and say its you, cause i know you wont even care. i wont walk up and say its you, cause i know it will still turn out that im wrong. i wont turn my head and cry alone again, because, i know that it wont change. i know that fate is sealed for me, the evil smile, they wont let you see. but ive seen it, and will get used to it. you never will understand how it feels like, when you never seem to be there. behind the smile are things you will never ever understand. one. JUST ONE MORE WEEK TO SCHOOL ENDS MAN. means upgrading from sec 1 to sec2. soon we will be in 2J. how time flies... i rmb the first time i stepped into RV, the stranger-like faces of felicia and grace and cherie, the jealousy i had for weiying shimin shixin and ht. hahaha i was jealous cause i thought they made frens so soon! turns out that they were from the same primary school! how the guys were playing around, how alfino was anti-social! how chengyu made fun of my name o.O haha..those were the first impressions! xDD now it seemed like ive known felicia grace cherie ht sm for long! hahaha. and for my dear huihui, we've gotton so much closer than before. how i stalked felicia on the first day, how she asked me to spell out my name, how i introduced her to lihui, how she laughed and i nearly tot she had gone siao (no offence! xD), how we went home together and how i forgot to press the bell for her to stop at her stop. o.Ohaha. and how we got together with grace cherie they all to eat, to Jap class, how we all played water with yangshuo joshua hc and the other guys... how we made the chinese lantern together, how i said 'my bladder is full!', how i went flower-eat with lihui felicia grace cherie ht sm, how we went vivo to eat... how we had sir, mr suria, mr tan with us, how yangshuo was with us joking around, how lihui felicia yc cr and me went home together aft CCA, the many times we chiong over 963, the times when me lihui yc cr took the bus to school, how me and lihui had many interesting experiences on the bus with sometimes yc cr francis, how ht joined us! the many rv snrs who tke the same bus to school, the many times during recess when we had loads of malu stuffs happening, the times when 1J won prizes, the IU day when we tried so hard to decorate the class, how we started our class tee, how many people started leaving, the times when we cried together, the times when we walked together, the times we had PE and ran together, the many many times when we laughed so hard together. how we stood outside the class and looked at people walk up, which will most likely not happen anymre once we are 2J... sobsobs and NOW, how lihui and ht made me addicted to chi novels! LOL and how felicia and i struggled through the many projs! bahahahahas those were all my secondary 1 memories, and of course, i cant possibly name them all. and now, its near to year end alr. i dont know wat will be in stalled for me for the following year, i dont know what else might happen, wat other memories life can give me. but i know that only one year is left for me to stay in JELLYBEANS class. so i must treasure all my dear jellybeans yea! heh. wat a long and emo post. BUTHEN its worth rejoicing about! because we ve all gone closer! like me and felicia, from strangers to friends! and lihui and me, from friends to buddies! hehs. ;D things do change. and like wat grace said today which was like so true, 'its like in our primary school days we might have walked past without noticing each other' haha...true right? and now we are like such close friends larh! xDD but i still do miss primary school life, the people and stuffs are different as well.. stress level, freedom level, and the different personalities of people. all are ever changing.. not forgetting my CCA! haha. badminton was slackish at that time, but we had LOADS of FUN! ;DD and now band, more stressful and demanding, but i had LOADS of FUN AS WELL! hehs, maybe except for morning runs! muahahaha. ;D how i got to get my first try on the clarinet, how me and zoezoe smiled at each other and slowly became frens with kimberly they all, how we had our first tutor MR NG HOE! how we got into the main band together, how we had our games day! how we fried rice and baked cookies at gim's and wenhui's house, how we went to claire's condo to mke cards for them... many times to remember about too! xD ahhhhh. typed a lot but just wish to continue typing and typing and typing... I LOVE THOSE MEMORIES MANN. i hope life can replay once more,, and replay it in my head all over again. and make sure they wont ever ever fade. ** 8:54 PM