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| Tuesday, October 30, 2007
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SUAYY ARH.im suay-ed for the rest of the holidays, or rather the rest of my life, or rather, when i was born. HELLLLLLL. you never wanna know what happened today. the day was sunny in the morning. i practised clarinet for the final time and went online for a while. what a wonderful day hoh!! then i met up with kimdar and sarah for brunch! at long john silver! yummy.. SO THERE. i discovered, I BROUGHT MY CONSENT FORM! no punishment! YOOHOOO~~ I DIDNT BRING BAND BADGE! got punishment. HELLLLLL~~ but, thats not the main point. so we had sectionals first before combined. sebastian was quite disappointed or sad or angry with sec1s... cause like...we werent rlly good...D; yah...then gim got come today! XD then came to combined, Ms chan didnt come, so Xueqiang took us. was okay larh. quite nice. THEN. HERE COMES IT. Sec3s ain joining us for the next THREE practices, means left with sec1s AND sec2s WITH ms chan. NVM! but cant get to see farah larh sobs. ANYWAY! so next practise, TMRW, SEBASTIAN! not coming. got stuffs to attend. LIHUA! not coming, dont know why. FARAH! sec3, got extra lessons, not coming. KIMYEE! BO LIAO DE! must COME! all the people in my sub-section, only i going tomorrow. HELLLOOO. im so far the lousiest in the subsection, and HELOOOOOO, all the pros aint coming, all PANG SEH ME!! i conclude that im the suay-est person on earth right now. i feel like dying and digging a hole for my grave so i can lie in it now. im so dang worried ms chan is going to scold me like hell. im so dang worried im going to mess up the whole band tmrw. all because of me. HELL. i dont wish to go CCA tmrw. HELL. i wanna go HELL now!!!!!! ZZZZZZZZZZ.. OKAY. but ive decided that since i cant PON the whole darn thing, I MIGHT AS WELL PIA THE WHOLE DARN THING!! and if ms chan is going to scold me like hell or sth, at most im going to cry or at most i just look at her and say 'sorry' cause i know i suck at it and im really sorry to her. A-R-G-H. i feel like a failure or sth. ARGH. LETS DROP THE UNHAPPY STUFF AND GO ON TO THE HAPPY STUFFS! announcing ZHIYI as our new library leader and KAIZHEN as the new assistant library leader! muahahaha. L. SHIXIAN as welfare leader! hehe, zhiyi is very unfortunate. hopes she can find joy in arranging scores! XPP ANDANDAND. you know BARNEY? LETS CHANGE IT TO BRA-NEY! so you have to imagine BARNEY in BRA! HEHEHEHE. thats wat i told felicia XD LOLS. okay so damn lame please XD and since BARNEY is PURPLE , ITS BRA SHOULD BE??? WHITE! most outstanding colour to match with purple HUH! SO, HAPPY IMAGINING! XDD okay im super duper evil. =PPP ALRIGHT. so coming up next, INVENTED BY MOSTLY HUANG LIHUI and tankimyee, we have, the INDEX FINGER PEN! so firstly, you are supposed to chop off your index finger on the right or left hand, depending whether you are right/left handed xP and then, using our invention, you can put on the FAKE/ARTIFICIAL index finger pen, which comes along with this REFILL. NOW, you have no index finger, BUTBUTBUT, you do not need to buy any pen anymore! BECAUSE, there is always a pen with you! and you can simply write with your INDEX FINGER! NOW HOW COOL IS THAT?! WATS MORE, IT COMES IN 24DIFFERENT COLOURS!!! okay. veryveryVERY lame. XDD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH-ingg. IM SCARED WORRIED AND WATEVER FOR TMR's BAND. ZZZZ HELL. /
i dont want to grow up!i still wanna be a kid, when you dont need any job, you dont need to worry about much things, where you can sing loudly in public and people knows that you are just a kid, where you dont need to worry about eating too much, or worry too much about your results. what a great life ;) but i want to grow up, so i can work and earn my own money, so i can live in a dream to work towards wat i want, so i can hang out with my friends, so i can go overseas and have fun! ;) i have fun being a kid when i dont need to worry abt anything. yet i have fun when ive grown older and i get to be so HIGH! two sides of a story, wats best about both. ;) im being like so oh hell random XD o.O and theres this laurier advertisement at the MSN thingy. muahahahaha. lalalalala. okay, so today after practising clarinet, going through the notes for the 'enchanted ...', i went swimming with lihui, twinnie, shimin, grace, cherie. it was fun with the slides, tides and stuff. and not forgetting some crazy actions of ours and of course! KFC! do you see the oils and fats circling around? MUAHAHA. LOLS. so it was really fun today arhs! i loves them loads! and tmrw there's CCA! first up will be meeting KIMDAR for lunch! XD last but not least of course, I MISS FELICIA NGWAIMUN! the very crazy lame girl, and not forgetting her laughter that you can always hear in the, TOILET! xDD when life turns upside down, its your job to turn it all around! XD YOU MAKE ME JUMP TO THE RHYTHM! * /
HOME ALONE!or maybe not. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. im rotting today. my cousins say "wah ur hols so lifeless one" HELL! I DONT AGREE, yeah right, AS if i dont agree. ahhh nvm. shall wait for a few more weeks and i'll be busier! muahahahas. lets hope the victoria concert hall will be opened for us! muahaha den we can have a concert next yr! WHEETS! xD and stupid holiday homework. GAHH. im like so bored over here. ;) tuesdaytuesday. tmr's theres CCA! finally sth nice to do LOL. ;) i miss all the sec4s. and JELLYBEANS! :D lala. nothing to post alr. ;) byesbyes. Saturday, October 27, 2007
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it happens when you dont want it to.im trying to break up my posts and putting in colours so that it seem easier to read. i dont know if i works, but it did works for me. heck. so many months nvr come alr, then when i just need to drag it a few more days it came. and the days are so hot and im at home with a spoilt air-con. like wow. i wanna go library for air-con. early morning at 8.30, i woke up and went to teck whye for breakfast with my mum. quality time or something. we shopped till 11 there, and we came back sweating like we just ran in the rain. ;) for the next few days it will just be computer, library, books, holiday hw, practise, CCA, guitar. a few stuffs that revolves around me all the time. not forgetting my beauty sleep and coaching my brother. ;) lets hope i have more things to do, although the stuffs mentioned above are enough to last me for the next 8 weeks. i want chalet please! oh yeah, really have to thank grace for her effort in the class chalet larh. i dont know whether we are still gonna have it. haii. muamuamua. o.O i missed hannah montanna and suite life of zack and cody yst. 'cause of my bro's exam. !!! i want TeeVee! YAY and tmr MLB will be on channel u's show! WHEEEEE. must catch must catch. muahahaha. one more thing to do! ;) i wanna dream too. haven been dreaming a good dream for the past three days. BOOO. and yes, im like 7posts away to 200. *jumps* wanna thank felicia and lihui for trying to cheer me up and being there for me always. ;)) i love you all loads. /
Blame it on your courage.Or blame it on yourself. had a pretty hard time trying to coach my brother today. life's been a bore and a chore. so many things to do, so little time, so no mood to do. things been clashing with each other, chalets with camps, camps with CCA, CCA with guitar. hundreds of people i came by today, and no one smiled at me. they stare and stare and stare like im an alien from mars. randomly talk on humans. ;) people sometimes just dont like to spare their smile. dont they know that frowns tke up more muscle? and smiling actually makes you happier? people are holding hands and looks on their faces says, "Hes mine." or "Dont look at her or i'll hack you" LOL. people minding their own business and people stares at you when you talk loudly in the lift. you helped your mum fold clothes and it took you hours to finish folding the huge heap of clothings. you try to do it in a systematical way and you think its useless. you had a wondeful dinner that makes you feel drowsy. you switch on the computer and start posting about your dang life. yeah yeah. like people has time to care about your life when they are like so much busier with their own life. maybe i should really have a great ambition. recommended by my brother dat is, to be the CEO of mac donalds. WHEETS! my mum says he earns even more than the CEO of lee hwa jewellry. and maybe i really have to make myself into a clown before i join mac donalds. ;) how lame. lets start dreaming to be in a big white and red and yellow building with a big letter M at the top, and where you sit at the top 108th floor. you put your legs on your office table and signing documents. you earn a few million each second for every burger you sell in the world. whoa. how nice. and obviously dreams are dreams. so now im awoke just from my dream. blame it on the courage to dream such a big dream. what a day. what a dream. what a guy. and now im falling asleep again, this time not a dream. but a nightmare. lets start the nightmare when you are online. thinking about the person you love, suddenly the screen turns all black, and you see the person you were thinking a few seconds ago appearing, saying "stop being so foolish and dumb" a few thousand times that it got into your mind. your heart breaks into pieces. the guy/girl gives you a slap. you wake up, crying. blame it on yourself. now you are walking on the streets, back to life, society and reality. where nothing cares about you except the people you love and the people who loves you. where people goes to work, sleep, eat, drink, bathe, walk, run, talk, cry, play. where cruelty stays, where the best of your life happens. where you are grateful that some people appear in your life. THANKYOU. ILOVEYOU. where you hate your life and feel like dying. whoa, so random. ;)) /
a start or the end?maybe both. yesterday was the last day of the year in 1J! <3 stayed at our great fengshui place for real long, to have our last time experience there. and twinnie mentioned that if leaving our classroom made us alr so emotional, who knows wats going to happen on the same day nxt yr? saw a lot of sec2s in tears, and how they took class pictures together. mdm connie chan left us too, and the whole atmosphere then was like so sad. esp the last part of auld lang syne, you could see sec2s gathering around, singing it together. yesterday was the end of the school year 2007, a start of something new for all of us, a step forward, soon 2007 will just be the past, where it is left with beautiful memories for us to reminisce. i shall just pray and hope that for next year, 2J will still have good fengshui and that we will all still be jumpy jellybeans. I hope we will have the same number of jellybeans as we have now, and that the number of teachers we have will not keep changing and increasing. i hope we will still stay bonded and remain happy. i needed x amount of courage to do that. and now, ive used up 2x of my courage to do that. you didnt respond at all. there goes my courage again. maybe it was really a huge mistake. and i regretted doing that in my first place, wasting 3x of my courage on you. double the times of hurt. triple the times of fear. saw eugene at cristofori! not eugene from 1J. eugene from 6L! darn he didnt see me. maybe he went there to learn piano! hehs. ;D feel emo-ralised! zzz. im going to gain my freedom finally aft thurs. thats when my bro finishes his exams. gosh. "Practice is the only way for you to connect with music" quoted from guitar 'cher today. finished reading 'stuck in the 70s' as well. nice book man hah. ;) stonneeddd. Thursday, October 25, 2007
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一见钟情?1JELLYBEANS RULE. 1JELLYBEANS ROCK. 1JELLYBEANS OWN. BIG TIME. BIG CHAMPION. BIG WINNER! x) "dats the way uhuh uhuh, i like it uhuh uhuh" yeah i love MY DEAR JELLYBEANS MANN. i really love you all mann. if not for you all we wouldnt have won. seriously, thanks for making it such a success and mke me soooo damnn proud of you all. 1JELLYBEANS IS THE LOVE BABY! we've fought and scored and won the final competition of the year. oh man im so damn happy ;D THANK YOUU ALL SO SO MUCH. today was like WHOO MAMA. heh. we went to watch COACH CARTER in the LT5 today. oh gosh its a superb nice show. a pity we didnt get to finish watching, but its uber nice larh ah. and then we got news that our class won first for banner ANDD the cheer! oh gosh we were like, WOW. WE ROCK! haha. xDD we had LOLLIPOPS and CHOCOLATES! had loads of remaining and decided to give them out to our PSLs, ESP JUN MING for his very very nice help and chenyu and feei cause they helped with our banner! so we ended up stoning and getting stamps, exhibits after another and listening to presentations till 11.30. had the debrief for the learning sympossium and the day ended. waited for the others for their physics remedial but ended up in bpp first cause they were most probably gonna be late. ;D and shawn is a nice guy. grace's senior. ;D stoned in the library and then the playground. and yes, SAW 4 is out! i rlly wanna watch it aft hearing the plot from grace mann. but kets hope its not NC16 or R21? argh. fat hopes larh. lol. tmrw is our last ever day in the corridor of our dear very good fengshui class. thinking of how we have to climb like one more flight or staircase makes me wanna cry. argh. and thinking that we wont get to have good fengshui anymre mkes me even sadder. but i know that we will still be a class always. ;) andd like wth? clash, clash and clash. SECTION CHALET WITH PSL CAMP WITH SC CAMP WITH BEIJING. like wth? KIMBERLY! ZOENIN! SEBASTIAN! their SC camp all clashed with our section camp. and the PSL camp clashes with the last day. but its like wth? if kimdar and zoezoe dont go, dthen i go for wat?! WTH. everything just clashes when you dont want them to. Saturday, October 20, 2007
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we are like two parallel lines that will never meet.that just go on forever not realising each other. today was WOAHH, except for some bad things that happened that i dont wish to mention or watsoever. muahaha. so the day started out with preparation for our empathy cheer! we had the lyrics, and we have to have to moves. so we discussed all abit, and then went down for assembly. next we went straight to grandstand to prepare our banner and cheer! junming was our guiding PSL. whoo, hes a rlly nice and happy PSL! he keeps smiling one haha. hmms then we started to prepare for our cheer and tried to get everyone enthu. so we had our cheer to the melody of "its my life" by bon jovi. whooo. it was rlly nice! lyrics by feihon! ;D so we had a mini break, changed into our green, orange or class tee and we had our cheering competition! the rain started when it was 1D's turn i think. so we had to move fast. soon it was 1JELLYBEANS TURN! and yeah with our singing, actions, and the guys' breakdance, we rocked the grandstand for that moment! whoooo it was indeed a memorable last performance of ours man! ;D muahaha. the banner was like so nice also. xD next the rain got much bigger and we had to move to the classes. sadly, we had no avaliable classes o.O for that moment and we moved up and down to search for a class. and finally all the sec1s went to the canteen to gather. ;D hang our banners at the canteen there and was dismissed aft attendance. waited for grace and cherie's physics to end. but it was soon too late, arnd 2.14 and we left first. lihui twinnie and minmin and me slacked at the playground! saw sebastian and sean there as well, not at the playground, in bpp. LOLS. slacked till 4pm and came back home. twinnie and minmin went to have their romantic time together. haha. xD i will forget you slowly. dont wry, there's no fate between. i know no amount of tears can solve the problem so wats the use of dwelling over it? its not her fault. its nobody's fault. we just have no fate, thats all. /
PERFECT 90degrees angle.maybe aint dat perfect afterall. wheeee so i just realised there are sooo many things i didnt post about. lets start from the start, it was 尤老师's last lesson with 1J! and she said we are a very happy and positive class. o.O muahahaha. LOLS. then next was moving chairs and blah for tmrw's and thurs's learning event. wheeee means, no school! yes! so we had a looonnggg break till 10.45. and we had to proceed to LT1 for HUANG FEI HONG's MOOVIE! NOT LO FEI HON! haha.. yupp, so we practically spent the rest of our day there lerh. xDD and then we took 963, the six of us without minmin. AND WE STARTED OUR ZOO! ;DDD so it consists of the SEVEN OF US! and basically, its not sth to be happy about. HSIAOTIEN IS THE JELLYFISH! FELICIA IS THE CAT! LIHUI IS THE KOALA BEAR! GRACE IS THE PANDA! SHIMIN IS THE..oops i forgot. KIMYEE IS THE SQUIRREL! BUT ANYWAY, WE FORMED A ZOO! yes! and im a FREAK!! let me announce that TANKIMYEE IS A FREAK! okay. so people, PEOPLE are saying im a squirrel, xiaodao, THEIF?! and goldfish. ohh mannn wat a freak right? yes i know wat you are thinking. lols. okay, and YC CR ROY played BLIND MICE with me ht lh and grace. yes, a disaster! muahahahahass lol jkjk...hmms was quite fun with them around! and chuanrui is so pro at jumping arnd alrights. xD saw qinyuan, assumpta and sinzhi at bpp too. ;DD wheee school days are actually fun days too. /
FLOODEDD. againn.YES. we, poor little kids are flooded with the HOLIDAYS HOMEWORK AGAIN! and supposingly we are not supposed to get hmwrk cause its the ? HOLIDAYS! wahhh. and then the teachers gave us, HOLIDAY HOMEWORK. boooo. and then we have CCAs, and TWICE a week. and overseas trips or chalets, that completes the whole holiday plan. ;DD wat busy life huh. today was okay larh! i guess? we got released at 12.30 again! poor minmin has CCA larh! so we went bpp to eat KFC. WHOOOO i sense FATS FATS and FATS!! cheese and CHEESE! yesh, im growing FATS! xDD okay so means more exercise in the holidays, okay i understand. haha. AFRAIDD. why must the ending turn out this way? maybe its fate mking fun of me. everytime it just fails. do you know how someone can be so happy just by looking at you? haha, but so sad aft just looking at your words? the energy has became so weak suddenly, like a power just overcame me. i dont know if its true, you dont seem happy. but i hope you will be. dats at least wat i hope will be true. i wont expect anything in the future. it just leaves me more disappointed. thats how life is isnt it? i dont want to play anymore in this game of life. you wanna play, go ahead. i wont do anything, or react in any way any time ever againn. you can say its escaping from fear, or avoiding the challenges. but its like traps that you will step on, and get hurt, and tears start to stream down your face. once bitten twice shy. ive been bitten twice. not the third time. haha, im not ever gonna be a fool again okay? dont try to stop me, cause it aint gonna work. i dont want to play in this game. i dont want. since nothing is going to work out right, im not going to make any step forward anymore. we must not be afraid to tke any step forward. wat crapp, im not going to follow. cause nothing is going right! a robot's life. since i dont want to play in e game, control me fate. control me like how a robot would?! i dont want to care anymore. i just want to laugh and smile. for all i care. /
and i shall announce i love my TWINNIE TAN HSIAOTIEN!haha cause she complained her name always so small!! xPP happy now hoh hsiaotien? muahahaha. and of course i love the other 5of them as well! <3 and please!! if you all can PLEASE go to the KASHIWA CONCERT! P-L-E-A-S-E???!!! gahh. i didnt do much.. feihan pro. managed to sell 3tickets. gahhhh. im sorry ms chan. D: /
LAG & WOLS.im lag. 'cause i just realised my blog's time is WRONG! ahhhh. muahaha. LOLS. okay, so today overall hmm. was quite okay larh... EXCEPT CHEMISTRY! ahhhhh why must ms eu torture us with the work?! although its quite useful 'casue we will confirm use it next yr hoh, buden its bad to torture us with a mini test and homework! D; sadd. so now i have lesser time to read the book! heh. and i introduced to minmin a book! xP which i tink she liked it! muahahaha. im feeling good today, guess why guess why! I ALSO DONT KNOW LEH. hehs. although things did not seem to go really smooth. i just rmb how we used to sing during badminton in primary school, "i feel good, nanananananana!" wheeeeeeeeeeeeee. haha. ;D i love being a kid! ANDANDAND. TKY's FACTS! and i seriously mean FACTS! muahahaha evill.
FACTS. they are absolutely true, without any DOUBT. OH YES. the hidden truth. maybe i was really wrong. /
YAYY!mann im so happy cause my bro finally rmb all his oral stuffs! kekekekekeke. LOLS hey its really worth to rejoice abt it de! xDD im practically slacking now, and of course i aim to finish all my books. not by today of course, i will be superior if i did finish all ;D and i just realise theres clarinet and guitar as well ;( whoo. but its okay. cause i know i hve stuffs to do. its at least better than having nothing to do yea? ;D i dread going to next year man suddenly. its like, we are left with one year in J. wth. i feel sad now thinking of the last few days in 2J next yr. like how the sec2s are currently. and thinking that we wll all be separated into diff classes. and i know my fate is there, i wont get into the same class as any of my 6babes. makes me horrbily sick. maybe i should save all those words to next year. like how ht told me too, i dread going to next year, cause i will officially be a PSL, and thinking that im going to tke a class with other 3 people that are more sociable and are all friends, since i will defintely not be in any class same as grace and ht, makes me scared, very scared. strangerly like, thats how i would describe it. its like a fear that im afraid to overcome. perhaps even my fear of heights are better? im alr in the mood for hols. oh crap, and i still have to coach my bro. lets hope my coaching pays off well man. lets hope at least he passes all of his subj. esp chinese and english. lets pray hard. on tues he'll be having oral. lets just wish him luck. ive done all ive can to help ;D lalalala. reading storky now. recommended by minmin! heh. betraying chinese books for a while. i found out i read eng books 2times faster than how i read chinese. gosh. okay shall continue with my reading and get some practices for my brother. BYEBYE! /
心若倦了泪也干了这份深情难舍难了 曾经拥有天荒地老 已不见你暮暮与朝朝 这一份情永远难了 原来时还能再度拥抱 爱你的人如何死守到老 怎样面对一切我不知道 回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了 为何你还来拨动我心跳 爱你怎么能了 今夜的你应该明了 愿难了情难了 old but still a veryvery nice song ;D to love someone, is so hard isnt it? once you might have everything, and then you lose all. you can have the world once. and lose it many times if you dont hold it tight. /
 EMPTINESS. once, it was filled witha big fish and two turtles. never again it will be the same, because the fish and one of the turtles died. leaving with no more company, my dad went to the lake and released the other turtle. the fish had been there with me for 3yrs! and suddenly it developed some kind of disease that filled its body with huge red sore stuffs. ahhhhh sadd. the water sound often accompanied me when im alone at home. buthen now there's no more sound. leaving emptiness in the house. scary. that was the story of my dad's poor tank. now the tank seems even more dead than ever. blahblah. so we had this event management workshop. surprisingly the tchers who lectured us was the same as lihui's leadership workshop! muahahas. okay, so let me start out with this cute little story. "once upon a time, mary had a little mouse who ate cheese because it likes cheese a lot. it could not stop eating cheese and it became very excited and crazy and very very fat! mary tried to stop it by stomping on it, and it burst into pieces. From the remains of the mouse, she buried it." LOL. this was what happened during the workshop! muahahaha our grp came up with this story cause each of us could only fill in one word at a time. ;D what ive wrote wasnt really the exact one. ;D we played a few games and overall it was quite okay, except it was really freezing in the library. xD muahaha. im back home again and im going to spend the rest of my day coaching my bro and teaching him synthesis and transformation. old times, old times. i rmb mrs chan drilling us in this. ;D we had to copy the entire thing again as long as we dint get full marks. whoo. and now im here coaching my bro this. skipped guitar class 'cause of the workshop. going to skip twice for beijing. hell. im so noob maybe i should just give up. i dont think hes one guy i expected. ive plucked up my courage to do that, but it seemed like i shouldnt have done that at all. ive regretted it. maybe i still have to wait. buive wait long enough, have i? Friday, October 19, 2007
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we seemed like total strangers.maybe not totally, but almost. i dont know if its still there, or maybe its just roaming, and revolving around you and the others, but defintely not me. sometimes its just hard to talk with my heart, when i dont tink you even wanna listen. i feel like someone not there, not even a thing that you would wanna care. its like you just wanna get through from me, and not wat it seems to be. how cruel reality is, ive seen it. and soon i'll get used to it. because i know im just not noticed. i wont point to you and say its you, cause i know you wont even care. i wont walk up and say its you, cause i know it will still turn out that im wrong. i wont turn my head and cry alone again, because, i know that it wont change. i know that fate is sealed for me, the evil smile, they wont let you see. but ive seen it, and will get used to it. you never will understand how it feels like, when you never seem to be there. behind the smile are things you will never ever understand. one. JUST ONE MORE WEEK TO SCHOOL ENDS MAN. means upgrading from sec 1 to sec2. soon we will be in 2J. how time flies... i rmb the first time i stepped into RV, the stranger-like faces of felicia and grace and cherie, the jealousy i had for weiying shimin shixin and ht. hahaha i was jealous cause i thought they made frens so soon! turns out that they were from the same primary school! how the guys were playing around, how alfino was anti-social! how chengyu made fun of my name o.O haha..those were the first impressions! xDD now it seemed like ive known felicia grace cherie ht sm for long! hahaha. and for my dear huihui, we've gotton so much closer than before. how i stalked felicia on the first day, how she asked me to spell out my name, how i introduced her to lihui, how she laughed and i nearly tot she had gone siao (no offence! xD), how we went home together and how i forgot to press the bell for her to stop at her stop. o.Ohaha. and how we got together with grace cherie they all to eat, to Jap class, how we all played water with yangshuo joshua hc and the other guys... how we made the chinese lantern together, how i said 'my bladder is full!', how i went flower-eat with lihui felicia grace cherie ht sm, how we went vivo to eat... how we had sir, mr suria, mr tan with us, how yangshuo was with us joking around, how lihui felicia yc cr and me went home together aft CCA, the many times we chiong over 963, the times when me lihui yc cr took the bus to school, how me and lihui had many interesting experiences on the bus with sometimes yc cr francis, how ht joined us! the many rv snrs who tke the same bus to school, the many times during recess when we had loads of malu stuffs happening, the times when 1J won prizes, the IU day when we tried so hard to decorate the class, how we started our class tee, how many people started leaving, the times when we cried together, the times when we walked together, the times we had PE and ran together, the many many times when we laughed so hard together. how we stood outside the class and looked at people walk up, which will most likely not happen anymre once we are 2J... sobsobs and NOW, how lihui and ht made me addicted to chi novels! LOL and how felicia and i struggled through the many projs! bahahahahas those were all my secondary 1 memories, and of course, i cant possibly name them all. and now, its near to year end alr. i dont know wat will be in stalled for me for the following year, i dont know what else might happen, wat other memories life can give me. but i know that only one year is left for me to stay in JELLYBEANS class. so i must treasure all my dear jellybeans yea! heh. wat a long and emo post. BUTHEN its worth rejoicing about! because we ve all gone closer! like me and felicia, from strangers to friends! and lihui and me, from friends to buddies! hehs. ;D things do change. and like wat grace said today which was like so true, 'its like in our primary school days we might have walked past without noticing each other' haha...true right? and now we are like such close friends larh! xDD but i still do miss primary school life, the people and stuffs are different as well.. stress level, freedom level, and the different personalities of people. all are ever changing.. not forgetting my CCA! haha. badminton was slackish at that time, but we had LOADS of FUN! ;DD and now band, more stressful and demanding, but i had LOADS of FUN AS WELL! hehs, maybe except for morning runs! muahahaha. ;D how i got to get my first try on the clarinet, how me and zoezoe smiled at each other and slowly became frens with kimberly they all, how we had our first tutor MR NG HOE! how we got into the main band together, how we had our games day! how we fried rice and baked cookies at gim's and wenhui's house, how we went to claire's condo to mke cards for them... many times to remember about too! xD ahhhhh. typed a lot but just wish to continue typing and typing and typing... I LOVE THOSE MEMORIES MANN. i hope life can replay once more,, and replay it in my head all over again. and make sure they wont ever ever fade. ** Thursday, October 18, 2007
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ITS NOT YOUR FAULT LARH PLEASE!okay and thats dedicated to Felicia. IGNORE ANY TAGS DAT SPAMMING MY TAGBOARD. 'cause im psoting in school, now com lab lesson and joshua is imitating me!! LOLS. okay so im in school now. o.O and my flash proj cant be uploaded to the teacher. wth...arghs. oh well. okay so im bored and the girl beside me aint talking. o.O weird larh huh. whee 3more minutes byebye to here liao. byebye. o.O Wednesday, October 10, 2007
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IN LOVE!dont think in another way hoh. im just in love with books. due to the influence of ht and lihui. and my love for eng books came back too, from dear minmin. ;D bahahaha minmin and me just realised we have some same habits. xD me and ht are really twinnies mann! hahaha. our dads are tans. and our mums are zhous. xD so we figured out, TAN ZHOU TIEN! TANZHOU YI! gosh. amazing right?! hahahaha. we got back our lang arts paper. i got only 10/20 for functional writing. whooo. depressed depressed hah. but at least i passed larh. ah wadeva it is i got a B3 overall for it. hmmmms today quite slackish, and i keep falling asleep. ;D still waitinf for flash to load at ivle. it couldnt open at com lab today. so we had to send again. gahh oh well oh well. later im meeting ht and lihui at the library to borrow books! xD first time im so excited going to the library. guai right? o.O tmr there's no school! YAYY. HARPPIE. muahahahas. okay i shall go do some other stuf first. /
SCHOOL'S OUT!haha. just rmb the zack and cody's song! whoo. muahaha. life's been okay lately. except for quite a number of things that im fan about. grr. lol.. yst was FUN X3! muahahaha. 'cause in band i had fun! with farah of course, and ms chan! emily and xiaomeng came back and find us too! hehe, and xiaomeng was looking at this fly who lost one of its legs? heh, so MS CHAN WAS TOUCHED! lol im not rlly sure lah huh... buthen ahhhh it was so nice of the excos! YAY! and we all got cookies from them GREAT EXCOS WE HAVE! altho the cookie was a bit hard larh... buthen still nice lorh! xD and chocolates from heling! wah. means more fats. buthen, i love fats! bahaha. so there. im waiting for ht to send me the flash. darn it man. MY FREE TRIAL EXPIRED. gahh. wth...so darn pissed, spent an hour trying to download it yst night. GRRR. so today went for omni theatre. and wth, our last PSS dont know still got a not larhs. ZZZ got cancelled of the thingy. but i guess the show was quite nice bah. lalalas, must post to kill time heh. declaring my next favourite colour too! GREYISH SILVER goes well with PURPLE!!! there's a workshop to attend this saturday, means skipping guitar lesson again. gahhh i still cant get the chord right. oh hell. went to the doctor yst for my skin allergy too, NEARLY got an mc. wow hengg mann. alright lets hope all goes well for the longggg and boringgg day tmr. ;DD good day everyone /
ABISH.helloo, many days never post alr. so there was no guitar yst. went bukit timah and then orchard with family. yay went to bukit timah there for the goat soup. mann it was heavenly nice ;D and then we went to orchard where my shopping 'adventure' got ruined by bro zzz long story man. shall not talk about it. and then we came back at arnd 3.45pm. and i slept a big sleep till 6.30pm and watched zack and cody! muahahaha very nicee. and my dad was like laughing at arwin (dont know how to spell). LOLS. yeap, and we went bangkit for dinner! and came back watched tv till 12am. and zzzzzzzzz i slept like a pig again! woke up at 10 this morning and confirmed with my cousins dat we were going to the kbox once again. i dont know why i keep going to kbox when my singing sucks so much larh. probably just to accompany my cousin since shes the only girl. so went lunch with mum and bro at kopitiam. got this stupid rashes or skin infection thing that itches a lot. got it all over my back, neck and stomach. like wth **scratch scratch** lol. hmms then went to bpp again to meet up with ht and lh to library. with my bro. yes, your eyes were correct. WITH MY BRO to coach him oral and hmwk. so that was how my day got ruined once again, but thanks to ht and lh it got a bit better? was teaching him oral and he seem to forget everything once five minutes was over. so i was like feeling so pathetic useless and tired. arghs. so came back at arnd 6.30. ate a wonderful dinner that made me feel good once again! and started on using com. just started 15minutes and my mum wanted me to check my bro's hmwk. greatt. okay so ms chan's bday is coming soon!! YAY HER! bahahaha shes nice... but im scared of her still. hehs...okay here's wishing her an early bday!!! HAPPYBDAY MS CHAN! xD tues will be great mann. ;D 是我没有用？ 还是我没有尽力？ 我已经很努力的在帮忙。 可是你还是觉得我帮不够。 很不公平。 我还是要牺牲那么多。 我有管，我有试。 我很累，很累。 你总是看不到。 /
OH MY.guess wat. i just rmb dat tmr there's the clarinet test. erm WOW. and they are testing on practically everything, from scales to techniques. okay, my hands are alr shaking to hear that. i really hope to get a NEW clarinet alright. and GUESS WAT?! wheeeeeeeeeeeee. like wat kimdar and from cshiaxian's pm, CLAIRE IS BACK!! bahahahaha. until sunday!!! xDDD altho i haven see her yet and tmr is the last day i can get to see her... and theres a great possibility i wont see her, but at least i know shes in singapore now! hahahaha. ;DD iloveshermany. and and and guess wat? we got back our history, lang arts compre, and physics!! GOSH. didnt really score for them, but contented with the marks ;D oh yeah, omni theatre thingy clashes with last PSS session. like wth? then how you tell me?? hais. 走一步算一步好了。 hey grace, dont need to worry about me, its just a birthday, big deal. thanks for ur concern yea? buthen you must cheer up first promise? haha. =) some things are beyond our control. 你应该开心，因为你曾经拥有。 okay enough of posting. have to go revise clarinet liaos! wish me lucks! =P /
yeah, so we have to help ms chan publicise this concert!if you can come (PLEASE), inform me! xD 'cause its really good and we seldom have this kind of thing. and i swear they are dam good at it. but if you wouldnt want to go i wont force you. ;D combined concert with YUHUA SECONDARY & RIVER VALLERY HIGH. together with KASHIWA MUNICIPAL HIGH SCHOOL BAND. its a japanese band. ESPLANADE CONCERT HALL, 7.30PM. 11th JANUARY 08. tickets are $36, $46, $100. tickets are expensive, but confirm worth it 'cause the jap band is hell good. ;D wah piang, today was sec4s last day. as in, their graduation ceremony. SADDS, we heard the graduation song. GAHH saddening larh... i will miss you, WENHUI GIMLING EMILY XIAOMENG CHAIYING okay and MANYYY MOREEE. sobsob. and we have to wait for another 6 yrs for a BIG CRY. LOL. okay, so we got back geog and math for the past two days. and err. watched more moovies. hmmm. yeah, dats roughly about it. =)) Monday, October 08, 2007
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yay im rotting at home ;DD ate cereal as breakfast and bread for lunch. gonna tke medicine at 3. and goodddddd, my mum says dun eat that 3in1 pill! i think everyone's out. almost everyone i guess. and im just left here rotting. but hey! ive got things to do larh. and i just packed my clothes and half of my soft toys. they look clean now! and den i prac scales! for clarinet. oh gosh tmr's there's CCA. lets watch and see how i will die yea? =.= oh right so im slacking here.. den i shall go back and finish the other half of my soft toys! wheeeeeeeeeeeee. oh yes i finished the chi hw too! see im good at finding things to do bahahahaha. gahhhhs. tonight i have to coach my bro for his paper 1 which is like tmr. gosh hes not nervous at all he still watched tv for so long yst. wow hes good. wish me good luck in coaching him man altho i tink i will lose loads of blood. donate me some blood will you? im alone at home for the rest of the day =))))))) okay i bet kimberly, zoezoe, sofia, yijun evan sarah bryan paola are all at escape right now. ahh hope they have fun! Sunday, October 07, 2007
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all thanks to the 3in1 pill once again shall we?for making me nauseous again. man i feel like dying. i feel like im in hell. i hate going to the doctor. zzzz. i waited 2 and a half hours to see him. and then i came out after 5minutes. WOW. grrrrr. now i so feel like puking. and yes, he gave me an MC and excuse for p.e. for like 7days? znd loads of pills to last me with. great, im going to miss great food cause im going to get nauseous AGAIN! YAY ME!!!! WHOOHOOO. lucky tmr no school, cause the mc is for tmr. my great appetite is ruined thanks to you the 3in1 pill. ZZZ so tmr i cant go out thanks to you the doctor who gave me an mc and my mum want me to rest at home. GRRRRRR. so my flesh, my blood and a bit of cherie's bones make a great soup. dat was wat felicia said o.O AND FELICIA's HAIR as vegetables. dat was wat i added in. hahahaha. lets hope i finish the 3in1 pills fast. zzzzzzzzzzzz. /
my hands smell of chinese medicine. =.=helped my parents to wrap the chinese medicine into packets of 1kg to sell? lol. i dont know why my dad wanna do it. wheeeee so we wrapped 20kg in all. =) and yeahh, i forgot to add in for yst's post dat i went to bukit gombak to eat dinner LOL, hey the toufu was CHAOOOOO NICEEE OKAY!!!!!!!!!! hao xiang seafood steamboat, near bukit gombak's mrt station and the CC. and and and MY DEAR GRACE helped me to take chinese medicine and western medicine for my sore throat!! YAY HER!!!! haha she very nicee!!! xDD den i drank almost, everything. wow. LUCKILY i dint have stomachache. later im FINALLY going to the doctor's! yikes. and probably just coaching my bro, and going to orchard MAYBE? i dont know. OH YES ITS SHIMIN's OFFICIAL BDAY!!! HAPPY BDAY MINMIN!!!!! Saturday, October 06, 2007
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whooo,i just hit my leg onto the keyboard and my skin goes PEEEELINGG off. yay new skin tissues! wow. LOL. **cough** **cough** **COUGH!** LOL, yes im still coughing, like hell. its hurts a lot man. but its alot better i think. woke up at 7.30am. prac guitar, noo mood? then mum and dad came in, chit-chatted. even NO MOOD to prac lol. so time's up, went for guitar. great, got 'lectured' my cher. not rlly lectured. like, "woahhh aft exams still slack, dowan prac guitar?" o.O saddd. met up with ht and lh aft dat to ______ to get prezzie for minmin. den went to cck to eat, and bought a tub of ice-cream as cake. lol. so went to the k there and prepared the candles and blah, and waited for grace,cherie, mimmin to come up. priscillia, grace's fren got come also. put cream on minmin's face lol. sang from 2to7. got rlly high? hahahas. had loads of fun man ;DD HAPPY BDAY TO MINMIN!!! ive not regretted coming to rv for a lot of things. one of them is meeting FELICIA LIHUI GRACE CHERIE SHIMIN HSIAOTIEN. MY SIX FAVOURITE GIRLS! and of course, not forgetting a lot of other people i love too!!!! tmr's probably just rotting at home in front of this screen. whoooooooooo now i love rotting and boring and slacking arnd cos i know its better than mugging. heh. byebye! have a nice night everyone! |